at 22 I have found an end
I realized tonight that I will never be able to be optimistic about life, humanity, or anything else that I was born with the gift of... I have realized that no matter how much I try I can never make anyone happy,, I feel so unpretty that I wish that I could shoot myself for all my sins in and out. I realized that Im a fuck up and I will never make anything out of myself, anyone that I get close to dies of something weird or kills themselves... so how much good am I on the world. I feel all alone tonight.. the same as I do every night. I wish that I could just be happy for once.