I dont know
I dont know what to do anymore. I seem to have few and really far between friends. Everyone thinks I'm an asshole now because I say what I think now. I actually stand up for myself instead of hiding in the corner like I used to and let people walk all over me like I used to. I am not going to beg or persist after someone if they dont want to be my friend for real. I am tired of people criticizing my every move whether it be right or wrong. I have my self to critique myself at all times and I think that is enough to worry about. I wish I could just start over. I'm so sick of friendship being a one way street where Im doing all the giving and someone else is doing all the receiving. Im sick of people telling me what direction I should take my life in and also giving me so much advice and telling me that it's the right way when they havent even experienced it themselves.. so who are they to judge?? Maybe I have changed a lot but I know my self better now than I ever have and feel the same way about walking away from people with out saying much... when most of the time I probably should say more.