Chers amis,
So I am going to the movies with David today. We met in a hiking group that I set up about 3 months ago when I was still with Cedric. We went out about 5 weeks ago for the first time after the hike to have a friendly dinner. We went out a second time for lunch. On that second time, he tried to kiss me. But, as I explained to him yesterday, my heart is closed and not accepting new members. I will be starting university in the fall. Will be going through a lot of changes. Meeting new people in my field of study. Meeting people (I didnt say this) my own age.
He is late 30s/ early 40s. Never been married. No kids. And I gots the feelin' that he's lookin'.
So yesterday we had our 3rd outing together, which he notified me lasted 9 hours. At the debut of this afternoon I told him point blank that I did not want a romantic relationship- not with him, not with anyone. He smiled and said OK. So I felt more at ease with him and allowed myself to start going through the list of reasons that Cedric and I broke up and how he had hurt me, etc. etc.... At the end of the night, David was rubbing my shoulders while I waited for the bus. And had playfully called me "dear" a couple of times during the night. Hmmmm....
I will drop the bomb today of the real key to the reason why Cedric and I broke up today: As I told him yesterday I seriously would like to be baptised Catholic... and that I had originally thought that I was coming here to go to agriculture school and become something of the sort of an organic farmer. I am now on this very natural way of being path. And going along with this natural way of being, and maybe beginning to explain my desires for choosing the Catholic church, I no longer believe in birth control. It started with an allergy to condoms, and them moved to my desire to stop all hormone-changing chemicals from entering into my body, and now I feel that, for several reasons, birth control is not for me. This eventually became a big canyon between Cedric and I... after we tried the rhythym method and were not very good at it and decided that neither of us liked the idea of abortion... we couldnt have sex... and loved having sex together... and was one of the staples of our relationship.
So I dont know what is floating around in David's head, but there is no romance in this girl.
Ciao
He is late 30s/ early 40s. Never been married. No kids. And I gots the feelin' that he's lookin'.
So yesterday we had our 3rd outing together, which he notified me lasted 9 hours. At the debut of this afternoon I told him point blank that I did not want a romantic relationship- not with him, not with anyone. He smiled and said OK. So I felt more at ease with him and allowed myself to start going through the list of reasons that Cedric and I broke up and how he had hurt me, etc. etc.... At the end of the night, David was rubbing my shoulders while I waited for the bus. And had playfully called me "dear" a couple of times during the night. Hmmmm....
I will drop the bomb today of the real key to the reason why Cedric and I broke up today: As I told him yesterday I seriously would like to be baptised Catholic... and that I had originally thought that I was coming here to go to agriculture school and become something of the sort of an organic farmer. I am now on this very natural way of being path. And going along with this natural way of being, and maybe beginning to explain my desires for choosing the Catholic church, I no longer believe in birth control. It started with an allergy to condoms, and them moved to my desire to stop all hormone-changing chemicals from entering into my body, and now I feel that, for several reasons, birth control is not for me. This eventually became a big canyon between Cedric and I... after we tried the rhythym method and were not very good at it and decided that neither of us liked the idea of abortion... we couldnt have sex... and loved having sex together... and was one of the staples of our relationship.
So I dont know what is floating around in David's head, but there is no romance in this girl.
Ciao