chapter #1 - part 3.
Heyya!
I'm back. Couldn't post yesterday because of school. God damn math tests and load's of homework. But I'm ill now, so I have time to post. I'md doing fine. Found some new friends here and I'm really glad about that. My headaches got better too.
Okay, so anyway. I don't wanna bore anyone. Here's the next chapter of Rising Low
It was Saturday morning. Ruby hadn’t gone to school the past two days. She hadn’t even thought of school. There was nothing she was able to concentrate on. She had stayed in bed all Thursday and most of Friday too. She hadn’t even left her room for food, so her mom sometimes brought her some tea and some soup or so. It was like all her life had been one big dream and she had finally woken up with a bad feeling. Ruby had never felt so low in all her life. She felt like it was killing her and maybe it really was.
It was till dark outside and Ruby hadn’t found any sleep the whole night. She rolled around in her bed and walked over to the large window. The world outside seems incredibly unreal, cold and dark as it was. Ruby felt like she didn’t belong here anymore.
‘Don’t get philosophical’, she said to herself and walked away from the window again. She sat at her desk. Trying to write something down, but nothing came to her mind. The tears of the passed days and hours had finally dried away and Ruby felt like an empty bucket. There were no tears left to cry. Ruby knew that all would be over today. Today was the funeral. She would say goodbye and she would keep him in mind for the rest of her life. But she wouldn’t cry anymore. She simply couldn’t.
Ruby got dressed for the funeral. All completely black. She looked at herself in the mirror. She looked terrible. Her eyes were swollen and red and her skin was bad from crying so much and the salt of the tears. Ruby waited for her mom and Anthony and Nicole, her brother and sister, to get ready. When everybody was finished, they all went to buy some flowers in the store down the street. They bought a beautiful bouquet and some stunning roses. Then they all walked over to mom’s car. It was a pretty long drive down to Harshville. Grandpa and Grandma ha lived there ever since, so he was going to be buried there. It took Ruby and her family almost two hours to get there and when they reached the graveyard the funeral was already about to begin. They found Grandma and Ruby stayed right at her side. She was sure that no one here had cried as much as Grandma and she had. The ceremony began and sometime Grandma took Ruby’s hand. They both didn’t here the words of the priest. They didn’t here or see anything. It was like a trance. In the end everyone threw their flowers into the grave. Ruby and Grandma were the last to walk up to it. Ruby sighed. She was so afraid of seeing the coffin. She hadn’t looked at it at all yet.
They stepped forward. Ruby looked at it. It was a dark grey coffin. It wasn’t special but the many flowers on it gave it a peaceful look. Ruby felt the tears coming to her eyes. She didn’t want to cry. She dropped her flowers. She whispered a quiet goodbye. Then she slipped away. She passed all the other people. They had all liked Grandpa. Grandpa had been a person with many friends. He had been a good person. He had been.
Ruby found herself crying in the car. Bitter tears but different from the ones she had cried before. These were tears for herself, because she had lost one of her best friends. Ruby didn’t even notice that her brother Anthony had come to the car. He sat next to her, patting her shoulder softly.
“Ruby…they are all having lunch. Don’t you wanna come? It’ll honour Grandpa, you know?”
His voice sounded sad and careful. Ruby wiped away her tears with a tissue. She nodded. It was true. Grandpa would want her to be there. She pushed herself out of the car and smiled at Anthony. He was a good kid. He took her hand and together they walked over to the small restaurant grandma had chosen for the after-funeral lunch. Grandpa had loved this restaurant.
It was already dark outside when Ruby ands her family returned home. Nobody had spoken during the long drive from Harshville. Ruby went to bed straight away. She didn’t even mind to undress. It took her a long time to falls asleep since her head was full of so many things. When she finally did, she had long and weird dreams and she woke up a couple of times. But she still felt much better the next morning. Ruby woke up with a feeling of relief. She didn’t know why she felt that way, but she did and it surprised her somehow. Ruby opened her Window and saw that the weather today was much better than yesterday. Now that was really making her kind of suspicious…but still: Probably the weather yesterday had simply seemed worse to her because she had been feeling so bad. Ruby slipped into a pair of jeans and a simple shirt. She walked over to the kitchen to make herself some coffee. It was the first time in nearly 4 days she was feeling appetite. Her mom and her siblings were still asleep. Naturally, since it was only half past 8 on a Sunday morning. Ruby sat down at the kitchen table, nipping at her coffee mug and listening to the ticking of the clock above the sink. Everything seemed like always. Ruby felt that her everyday life had begun again. She was back. Back to reality.
Ruby spent the rest of Sunday morning playing with her brother and sister. It made her think of other things. It actually made her happy. For lunch they all went to a pizza restaurant down the street. The pizza didn’t really taste good, but Ruby loved it anyway. It was something different from tea. And it was way different from the taste of her bitter tears. By late afternoon Ruby had already forgotten almost everything about the passed sad days. She was feeling alive again.
It was half past six when the phone rang. Ruby was the first reach the phone. Slowly she picked up the receiver. “Hi? This is Ruby Bowie”, she said in a calm and soft voice. Like she always did. “Hey, it’s me. Amanda”, said the voice on the other side of the line. Ruby held her breath. She had totally forgotten about Amanda.
“Amanda! Gosh, I totally forgot. How are you?”
“I’m fine, honey. The question is how are you? You’re mom told me about it a couple of days ago and she asked me not to call again until Sunday. Today is Sunday.”
“Um…yeah well I’m better now. Much better, to be true. How have you been? I was really worried about you on Wednesday, but I simply forgot. I’m so sorry. Everything all right?”
“I’m doing completely fine, thanks. Oh Wednesday…I have to tell you all about it. But it’s a long story and I’d rather come over and tell you in personal. It’s nothing bad or something but it’s very exiting and I think you’ll love the news…”
“News? Hell, I’m glad you’re okay”
“What made you think I wasn’t? Anyway…can I come over?”
“Um…this and that. You know…I get worried so fast. Sure, you can come over whenever you want to.”
“Great. I’ll come over right after dinner, if that’s okay? Anyway. You shouldn’t worry that much.”
“I know and surely you can come over after dinner. I’m really looking forward to it…haven’t seen you for so long.”
“Great. I’ll be there somewhat 7 or 8 pm.”
”’Kay. See you then.”
“Yeah. Love you!”
Ruby put down the receiver. She smiled. She felt like everything was okay again. Though it wasn’t really and she knew that. But she was glad that Amanda had called and that she was doing fine. Ruby was always pretty worried about her friends. But now she was looking forward to meeting Amanda this evening. She was exited about the news. They had to be really special, if Amanda even had missed school for that occasion. Ruby felt light now. She walked to her room and sat down at her desk. She had just gotten inspired for another poem or song. She wasn’t sure about that yet. It just should be something about friendship and lightness. She would call it “Pulling me up”. Dedicated to Amanda.
I'm back. Couldn't post yesterday because of school. God damn math tests and load's of homework. But I'm ill now, so I have time to post. I'md doing fine. Found some new friends here and I'm really glad about that. My headaches got better too.
Okay, so anyway. I don't wanna bore anyone. Here's the next chapter of Rising Low
It was Saturday morning. Ruby hadn’t gone to school the past two days. She hadn’t even thought of school. There was nothing she was able to concentrate on. She had stayed in bed all Thursday and most of Friday too. She hadn’t even left her room for food, so her mom sometimes brought her some tea and some soup or so. It was like all her life had been one big dream and she had finally woken up with a bad feeling. Ruby had never felt so low in all her life. She felt like it was killing her and maybe it really was.
It was till dark outside and Ruby hadn’t found any sleep the whole night. She rolled around in her bed and walked over to the large window. The world outside seems incredibly unreal, cold and dark as it was. Ruby felt like she didn’t belong here anymore.
‘Don’t get philosophical’, she said to herself and walked away from the window again. She sat at her desk. Trying to write something down, but nothing came to her mind. The tears of the passed days and hours had finally dried away and Ruby felt like an empty bucket. There were no tears left to cry. Ruby knew that all would be over today. Today was the funeral. She would say goodbye and she would keep him in mind for the rest of her life. But she wouldn’t cry anymore. She simply couldn’t.
Ruby got dressed for the funeral. All completely black. She looked at herself in the mirror. She looked terrible. Her eyes were swollen and red and her skin was bad from crying so much and the salt of the tears. Ruby waited for her mom and Anthony and Nicole, her brother and sister, to get ready. When everybody was finished, they all went to buy some flowers in the store down the street. They bought a beautiful bouquet and some stunning roses. Then they all walked over to mom’s car. It was a pretty long drive down to Harshville. Grandpa and Grandma ha lived there ever since, so he was going to be buried there. It took Ruby and her family almost two hours to get there and when they reached the graveyard the funeral was already about to begin. They found Grandma and Ruby stayed right at her side. She was sure that no one here had cried as much as Grandma and she had. The ceremony began and sometime Grandma took Ruby’s hand. They both didn’t here the words of the priest. They didn’t here or see anything. It was like a trance. In the end everyone threw their flowers into the grave. Ruby and Grandma were the last to walk up to it. Ruby sighed. She was so afraid of seeing the coffin. She hadn’t looked at it at all yet.
They stepped forward. Ruby looked at it. It was a dark grey coffin. It wasn’t special but the many flowers on it gave it a peaceful look. Ruby felt the tears coming to her eyes. She didn’t want to cry. She dropped her flowers. She whispered a quiet goodbye. Then she slipped away. She passed all the other people. They had all liked Grandpa. Grandpa had been a person with many friends. He had been a good person. He had been.
Ruby found herself crying in the car. Bitter tears but different from the ones she had cried before. These were tears for herself, because she had lost one of her best friends. Ruby didn’t even notice that her brother Anthony had come to the car. He sat next to her, patting her shoulder softly.
“Ruby…they are all having lunch. Don’t you wanna come? It’ll honour Grandpa, you know?”
His voice sounded sad and careful. Ruby wiped away her tears with a tissue. She nodded. It was true. Grandpa would want her to be there. She pushed herself out of the car and smiled at Anthony. He was a good kid. He took her hand and together they walked over to the small restaurant grandma had chosen for the after-funeral lunch. Grandpa had loved this restaurant.
It was already dark outside when Ruby ands her family returned home. Nobody had spoken during the long drive from Harshville. Ruby went to bed straight away. She didn’t even mind to undress. It took her a long time to falls asleep since her head was full of so many things. When she finally did, she had long and weird dreams and she woke up a couple of times. But she still felt much better the next morning. Ruby woke up with a feeling of relief. She didn’t know why she felt that way, but she did and it surprised her somehow. Ruby opened her Window and saw that the weather today was much better than yesterday. Now that was really making her kind of suspicious…but still: Probably the weather yesterday had simply seemed worse to her because she had been feeling so bad. Ruby slipped into a pair of jeans and a simple shirt. She walked over to the kitchen to make herself some coffee. It was the first time in nearly 4 days she was feeling appetite. Her mom and her siblings were still asleep. Naturally, since it was only half past 8 on a Sunday morning. Ruby sat down at the kitchen table, nipping at her coffee mug and listening to the ticking of the clock above the sink. Everything seemed like always. Ruby felt that her everyday life had begun again. She was back. Back to reality.
Ruby spent the rest of Sunday morning playing with her brother and sister. It made her think of other things. It actually made her happy. For lunch they all went to a pizza restaurant down the street. The pizza didn’t really taste good, but Ruby loved it anyway. It was something different from tea. And it was way different from the taste of her bitter tears. By late afternoon Ruby had already forgotten almost everything about the passed sad days. She was feeling alive again.
It was half past six when the phone rang. Ruby was the first reach the phone. Slowly she picked up the receiver. “Hi? This is Ruby Bowie”, she said in a calm and soft voice. Like she always did. “Hey, it’s me. Amanda”, said the voice on the other side of the line. Ruby held her breath. She had totally forgotten about Amanda.
“Amanda! Gosh, I totally forgot. How are you?”
“I’m fine, honey. The question is how are you? You’re mom told me about it a couple of days ago and she asked me not to call again until Sunday. Today is Sunday.”
“Um…yeah well I’m better now. Much better, to be true. How have you been? I was really worried about you on Wednesday, but I simply forgot. I’m so sorry. Everything all right?”
“I’m doing completely fine, thanks. Oh Wednesday…I have to tell you all about it. But it’s a long story and I’d rather come over and tell you in personal. It’s nothing bad or something but it’s very exiting and I think you’ll love the news…”
“News? Hell, I’m glad you’re okay”
“What made you think I wasn’t? Anyway…can I come over?”
“Um…this and that. You know…I get worried so fast. Sure, you can come over whenever you want to.”
“Great. I’ll come over right after dinner, if that’s okay? Anyway. You shouldn’t worry that much.”
“I know and surely you can come over after dinner. I’m really looking forward to it…haven’t seen you for so long.”
“Great. I’ll be there somewhat 7 or 8 pm.”
”’Kay. See you then.”
“Yeah. Love you!”
Ruby put down the receiver. She smiled. She felt like everything was okay again. Though it wasn’t really and she knew that. But she was glad that Amanda had called and that she was doing fine. Ruby was always pretty worried about her friends. But now she was looking forward to meeting Amanda this evening. She was exited about the news. They had to be really special, if Amanda even had missed school for that occasion. Ruby felt light now. She walked to her room and sat down at her desk. She had just gotten inspired for another poem or song. She wasn’t sure about that yet. It just should be something about friendship and lightness. She would call it “Pulling me up”. Dedicated to Amanda.