Heppy
yay. scratched the journal that i wanted off my wishlist. i'm still rather skeptical that the journal will actually (and not definitely like i thought, haha) change my life, but it's a pretty planner with random, sometimes useful, sometimes useless (i.e. utility schizophrenic) information in it. i guess it's finding out that my birthday is hair stylist appreciation day won me over.
oh, so merry christmas everyone! we have no plans for the whole day, since we had the party last night because some of my foster's relatives have planned to go to the states, ergo we celebrated earlier.
everyone i've talked with told me to spend christmas at my mom's. i could and i should, but it's complicated. but i am going to be there mga 27-31. anyway, december 25 is just a date, from what i've learned speaking with friends. i'm just going to make the most of my stay there when i am, while also trying to realign and reattach myself to both families. (and that, i blame on you damnessislove. haha.)
as for the day itself, i'm probably going to sneak out, i don't know, when i feel like sneaking out. as to how far my sneaking out will take me, i am not sure either. now i'm doubting the whole getting a planner just because it's pretty idea because spontaneity is my thing. ironically, i plan to be spontaneous. WHERE WAS I? ah, yes. i'm going out for a walk. this christmas, i'mma spend quality time with me.
i don't want christmas to be the international jei's day for moping because she chose (or has to choose) this family over the other to spend the holidays with. like i said, it's just a date. there's always a none of the above option, because sometimes all else just fails.
i'll seek solace in my solitude if by choosing either-or, i would ironically feel lonelier.
of course, hindi niyo gets. and that's a good thing. that means you are fortunate to not have to be bothered by such troublesome dilemmas. good for you. give yourself a pat on the shoulder. oh, and here's an awesome set of hugs. -hug-hug-hug-hug-hug-hug-hug-
merry christmas, everyone! :) i heart you.