emo-rry christmas...
[pardon the emo-ness...]
it's been four years since i lost the sense of finding any meaning for christmas.
it's the fourth anniversary of my chronic loneliness; as funny as it sounds, for i may be one of the most sociable people some of you know.
tomorrow is the glorious day i find myself misplaced over my own shadow...
...and how far away i am from myself is highlighted.
i do not mean to ruin this whole season of glee for you by being dreary.
instead, i would really like you to savor every smile and twinkle and the whole vocabulary of all things unsaid.
take advantage of how your family (or something like it) is all game for the drama of celebration.
exploit all that's elusive and wonderful about this season and what it invokes from you because trust me...
...that's what it's all about.
it's not about homage, charity, kaplastikan, or even giving and receiving.
it's about not having to worry about finding yourself because, even for just one day every year,
you feel right at home.
happy holidays!
© jei