Frustrated and Tired Still
How many times have you felt sick and tired of being sick and tired? I've had vertigo for almost one year straight despite visiting doctors almost year round to try to find out what is going on. Including sinus surgery on my birthday (almost)
A new course of antibiotics from Monday isn't doing the trick. I laid around until 11 today. Got up, did stuff I had to do like treadmill, laundry, dishes, cleaned the bathroom, took HBG for a walk, cooked dinner. Then I went back to bed at 7 napped until 9 when I had to put the kids to bed. I can't turn my head to the left, or lie down with out a ton of pillows. It sucks not knowing what is going on, but since I'm so scared of cancer, I'm just glad that no one has diagnosed that yet. My lord, I'm so whiney and bitchy tonight.
I'll hear HH and the kids laughing and it almost irritates me. I've got to get a grip. Most off, I just want to hide. I don't want to talk or see anyone this week. It all feels so hard. I just want to sleep and sleep well for once. No getting up a ton of times with crying babies. I had to drive them both around at 230 this morning. I have no energy. This past year, I've felt above normal for only a few days that I can count on my one hand.
OK, bitch time is over, I'm going to bed.
(Cross posted on myspace)