update?
been stressed a bit lately.
lost my 'memory stick' with a great wealth of information only backed up on my pc, which is currently down.
the house keeps gettting messy.
i miss my sister. :(
i have a bunch of tests/papers due soon.
i still have no friends at school.
my hampster hates me.
when i'm not busy out of my mind, i'm bored.
i'm the slightest bit tempted to smoke pot again.
i fear i'm jipping myself out of an education because i'm just skimming by without enought time to do the readings/homework.
i'm getting stupider from the busyness.
my brother's birthday is comming up and we didn't work a gift into the budget
i don't even know what to get him.
i miss him, i haven't hung out with him more than half a dozen times since the wedding.
i don't want us to grow apart.
i'm hungry.
i have a sandwich but it's unappetizing at the moment.
i'm boring.
i've gotten so caught up in the work school church cycle, and now marriage, i've forgotten what interests me.
not that i'd have t i m e to do it even if i knew what it was.
i like being outside i guess.
an i like to read.
but then i feel unproductive for not doing work school church house/marriage stuff.
what have i done?
am i even a *person* anymore?
i can't write for shit anymore.
and i can't cook.
sometimes i cry.
from the stress.
don't tell my mom, but i think i took on too much.
i'm terrified. not only of failing, but of not succeeding astronomically.
and i'm .a.d.d.i.c.t.e.d. to what? to persistance? i have no idea.