if you really love me, quit pettin' for affection, and burn the fucking house down now.

[hiphopheart22]

needing a chest to sleep on and being contented to trace tattoos, but still keeping my distance. it's probably for the best because i cannot fall in love and no one is trying to have me. and it's funny because the other night i said that i don't get excessively jealous. then i laughed to myself a little because i don't, mostly, but one person would highly disagree. with everyone else i'm just blase. i'm independent and commute to georgetown and most times i'm ok to be alone. nights are still hardest. but there are dark and handsome vegans with certain eyes, teeth, hands, skin, and pants. there is perder jamas and trying so hard to decipher people who don't talk about their feelings. i only like emotionally unavailable people and now that i've joined the ranks it's much easier. i can't tell if i can't love anyone because i don't care, i am protecting myself, or i just can't. but i miss a lot of things about a lot of people and i am not sure about anything. i miss it, but i just don't care.




they never mean what they say, they never say what they mean, they only want you to give in i wish to god i could meet somebody that i could just spend, somebody that i could just spend.