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Yesterday was a really painfull moment...
It was the graduation of the final year... I saw all of my friends and classmates who I never thought they would pass but did it anyway...
I felt like I was a failure compared to them....
Yes, I didn't make it ...
It was really painfull to hear mr Ruyter said that I didn't make it. I just couldn't believe it. I checked my answers and I got the grade I needed! I worked so hard!
I went to school and we both checked our answers. I marked 3 questions as right and it was wrong.
It was painfull for me, also a bit for him. He never expected that I would fail and he never wanted to give me that answer....
I tried to buy him off :P But it wasnt that easy. He said that it would be better for me to leave this school and do the adult education programm. But he also said that he is going to write a letter of recommendation to Rotterdam so that I would go to that school and try to get my diploma through evening classes.
Rotterdam is really strict so that is not going to happen. Joke Smith (adult school) has german only in the afternoon anyway...
I am going to have a really easy year. And maybe it is for the best anyway. I only have a couple of hour class a week, I can have a job and concentrate on CheeseCake and Noels classes. (I'm taking art classes by Noel some dude who has 2 masters in art in Italy and Holland)
It is lousy and it hurts but it happend.. I have to move on.....
My dad told me that it is a year less working and that it is not that wrong to have such a chance to get such an easy year...
He is right... But last evening was really painfull....
Everyone said that I was brave to show up and I had to see all the droopy faces looking at me.. I even had to come on stage because I am a member of the newspaper.The news spread fast that I was in the room....
I was happy that there was someone around who I could hug.... Thank you...
It was the graduation of the final year... I saw all of my friends and classmates who I never thought they would pass but did it anyway...
I felt like I was a failure compared to them....
Yes, I didn't make it ...
It was really painfull to hear mr Ruyter said that I didn't make it. I just couldn't believe it. I checked my answers and I got the grade I needed! I worked so hard!
I went to school and we both checked our answers. I marked 3 questions as right and it was wrong.
It was painfull for me, also a bit for him. He never expected that I would fail and he never wanted to give me that answer....
I tried to buy him off :P But it wasnt that easy. He said that it would be better for me to leave this school and do the adult education programm. But he also said that he is going to write a letter of recommendation to Rotterdam so that I would go to that school and try to get my diploma through evening classes.
Rotterdam is really strict so that is not going to happen. Joke Smith (adult school) has german only in the afternoon anyway...
I am going to have a really easy year. And maybe it is for the best anyway. I only have a couple of hour class a week, I can have a job and concentrate on CheeseCake and Noels classes. (I'm taking art classes by Noel some dude who has 2 masters in art in Italy and Holland)
It is lousy and it hurts but it happend.. I have to move on.....
My dad told me that it is a year less working and that it is not that wrong to have such a chance to get such an easy year...
He is right... But last evening was really painfull....
Everyone said that I was brave to show up and I had to see all the droopy faces looking at me.. I even had to come on stage because I am a member of the newspaper.The news spread fast that I was in the room....
I was happy that there was someone around who I could hug.... Thank you...