feeling different

[hines]

well i was watching a movie with my mom and it was kinda sad like this girl her dad died and her mom was gettin re-married and i thought of my dad and itmaid me cry..and i havent cried in front of my mom about that kind of stuff i really dont think ever. cuz i didnt cry at his funeral and i dont useally cry infront of people. its not common and i

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[jennefurr]

aw i love you rachipoo. and always remember that i am here for you alwayys. we have gone through a lot of stuff like that too and you just have to try to focus on the good things you have, because wishing for somethign that can never come will only make things worse, and make you bitter. i know how hard it can be and i know that saying it is okay to feel that way isnt much of a comfort right now but crying and letting emotions out really does help. and i agree with my sista ova heaa on everyhing, especially when she said to look at pictures of you guys or anything you have have that you may be able to reminisce with. i know this wont help, because not much can with things like this but i really believe that using things to remember him with will help you, and never try to shun or get rid of your feelings about this. remembering or looking back on happy times will make you appreciate the time you had with him, i think that when i was finally able to do that with my mom it made me feel soo much better. i think it will especially help you to be able to talk openly about it, if you wanted to, i know when i was younger i could never talk about my mom because i got too upset and could only think about her death. but opening a photo album or looking through some of his old stuff will help, even if it hurts while you are doing it, i think that later on you will be able to think of good times you had with your dad rather than thinking of his death. it is okay to feel sad and to hurt, but just maybe try to confront your feelings rather than covering them up. i dont know how much sense that made but i just wanted to give you some ideas or advice on the whole thing, beacause i can relate to you more than i think you know. sorry if this didnt make sense lol.

im always hea fo ya babay. i love yooous.

<3

[hines]

thanks soo much u guys... and i will look at pictures and im not going to hide my feelings ne more lol..and yes it did make sense jenny all u guys made me cry :'(..but now im happy :) lol im a loser...cant wait for nerywards
huGGs and kiSSes
Rachipoo