rants and non-rants
oh darling relief!
Its been days and weeks and two months of inner anticipation. Its silly, but my remedy was selecting next years courses. I have 'geek' engraved on my heart and I love it.
I could write a saga of details as to what has happened in the past weeks; little perks and colourful moments that are worthwhile, but time already encased it, and my recollections wouldn't be nearly as textile as I would want. So, I will write about the present... that moving flash, which constantly reminds me to be consistant. I have been locked in an analytical mind frame for some two weeks now. It all began by the river with some friends, as they smoked up and I sat by the water, and the clean air by the water stimulated our brain cells as we scrutinized world issues like good humanitarians. We talked of greed and destruction, and how stupidly expoited money has become. That discussion glued into my mind, and opened a shakra of perception. I thought about the focus of humanity, and its weak pursuits. I thought a lot about money, and how we are enslaved to it... how I am enslaved to it. Money bears along with it a certain mentality, an orientation. Its begs to grow and to own.
Sad thing being, there is no escape from its netscape. It encapulates all, and thats quite sad.
I learn to work to learn to work, and money weaves it all together.
I work 30 hours a week at Petsmart, so that I can go to school, so that I can get a job and pay off my loans. life.
However, thats just a taste of my fatalistic mindset. I am actually content with my daily challenges. I'm glad I realized that I cant change the world.
As to my coarses, they are wonderful and as follows: Christian imagination, Christianity encounters the Secular world, Ancient Philosophy, Environmental Science (for they INSIST on having a science credit) and Buddhism! OH, and the coarse with Intercordia. I made it so that all of them are in the mornings. I am actually quite excited. But then again, putting things together always gets me pumped in this wierd way. My work-filled summer makes me grave school... its not healthy.
I am going up north to the Kaszuby a.k.a the POLISH ONLY WOODS to see Sebastian. Its just the break I need, and I am pretty excited about it. Not only because I haven't seen my dear for a week, but also because I am looking forward to 4 hour car ride with his folks, the WILD! and I have never seen harcerze in their true nische.
Its been days and weeks and two months of inner anticipation. Its silly, but my remedy was selecting next years courses. I have 'geek' engraved on my heart and I love it.
I could write a saga of details as to what has happened in the past weeks; little perks and colourful moments that are worthwhile, but time already encased it, and my recollections wouldn't be nearly as textile as I would want. So, I will write about the present... that moving flash, which constantly reminds me to be consistant. I have been locked in an analytical mind frame for some two weeks now. It all began by the river with some friends, as they smoked up and I sat by the water, and the clean air by the water stimulated our brain cells as we scrutinized world issues like good humanitarians. We talked of greed and destruction, and how stupidly expoited money has become. That discussion glued into my mind, and opened a shakra of perception. I thought about the focus of humanity, and its weak pursuits. I thought a lot about money, and how we are enslaved to it... how I am enslaved to it. Money bears along with it a certain mentality, an orientation. Its begs to grow and to own.
Sad thing being, there is no escape from its netscape. It encapulates all, and thats quite sad.
I learn to work to learn to work, and money weaves it all together.
I work 30 hours a week at Petsmart, so that I can go to school, so that I can get a job and pay off my loans. life.
However, thats just a taste of my fatalistic mindset. I am actually content with my daily challenges. I'm glad I realized that I cant change the world.
As to my coarses, they are wonderful and as follows: Christian imagination, Christianity encounters the Secular world, Ancient Philosophy, Environmental Science (for they INSIST on having a science credit) and Buddhism! OH, and the coarse with Intercordia. I made it so that all of them are in the mornings. I am actually quite excited. But then again, putting things together always gets me pumped in this wierd way. My work-filled summer makes me grave school... its not healthy.
I am going up north to the Kaszuby a.k.a the POLISH ONLY WOODS to see Sebastian. Its just the break I need, and I am pretty excited about it. Not only because I haven't seen my dear for a week, but also because I am looking forward to 4 hour car ride with his folks, the WILD! and I have never seen harcerze in their true nische.