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sure, life is short, but only as short as you want it. i get hit by a car doing 40 on the freeway with a "totalled car" now in my hands. Getting it painted tinted and pimped out. i call in sick to work today with them trying to control me. that blew up in there face. been getting drunk almost every night now and i feel guilty. i keep hearing old songs on the radio in my head and on my computer which bring me down. people stopped calling now and time is running out. my phone will be shut off soon and my mind is slowly deteriorating. people tell me to ignore what happened in my life and move on, i cant. something which you were brought up on is hard to erase from your mind. little do people know that my life should have been short lived but for some reason i'm still alive. I should have never been born due to the fact my mother had Cervical cancer and had something removed. My father threw my mother through a sliding glass door while she was pregnant with me, i survived. I was left alone for countless hours day after day unattended in the front yard waiting to be kidnapped. i was beaten day after day for more than half of my life to be told to forget it, i cant. why do people think this can be forgotten? this should be a prime example for what not to do or have done. living a life in constant fear, close to danger at school being there at home. people think they know who i am and where i've been, challenge me and you will lose, i have been brought up to fight to the death. god and or lord have mercy on me, what did i ever do to obtain the right to have shit like this happen to me? why must i cry myself to sleep every night? why must i drink like my father? why cant i get someone to love me for once? why do i feel this way? no one cares, as long as there alright. fuck the world and its people, i cant and wont get anywhere. life is short, do something while you can.
Chris
Chris