the unreal

[hindenburg]

why you have to live life in this pain
some things people can't explain
i sit here thinking of the past
thinking how it had last
remembering when the terror ended
thinking of how i pretended
people thinking i had a normal life
but this kid had to pay the price
as i sit here listening to old music
feeling so very unenthusiastic
feeling a constant pain in my heart
the one which keeps getting torn apart
people just dont know what to do
now my life is just black and blue
find someone i like and get her number
but so frightened i might disturb her slumber
still at this point i feel lousy as ever
seeing my life as being never
being betrayed by my dearest of friends
me and them trying to connect loose ends
never works and you'll see this tormorrow
see, think, and feel all my sorrow
pains been here and never leaves
if you just see in my eyes
be where ive been
hear all of the lies
and to see beaten kin
my life shattered by dad
beating the son he never had
angry and upset at me for nothing
but in the end there was always something
a little boy that should of never been
a little boy which never sinned
but for some reason he was punished
for the job was done but never finished
im all grown up now with a lost mind
the one which i'll never find
never should have lived this way
i just cant see myself live another day
seems like it never ends
time to say bye my friends