The Sweetest Taboo...
It's been a few weeks since I've wrote last in here. I really haven't had much free time, nor energy to do much. Work consumes a lot of me anymore, which is sad. No one has much time to do anything anymore. I miss everybody. I miss my old friends, the fun times, the jokes, and the laughter. It seems like there isn't much laughter anymore...and everything is always taken seriously. Whenever I seem to write something, even an e-mail...no one ever responds. It seems like no one cares anymore what happens to whom. I'm guilty of this, I know. I've lost interest in a lot of things since Dave has come along...but I just want things to be fun. I want people to talk, chat, e-mail, hang-out and whatever with. Everyone just does their own thing, and I do mine. Once again, this is a sad reality.
I have a lot of thoughts in my head, some good some bad. Memories of the past...places, people, conversations. It's funny how a year can change so drastically. I drive along in my car listening to the radio...and remember the first time I heard certain songs...what I was doing, who I was with. It's ironic. Pink Floyd man, like now, Brain Damage is on...and it's funny how I just phase out and think of this time last year. Lying on my bed...talking on the phone...with the windows open...smelling the dead leaves...cuddled in my bed with my stuffed animals. It seems just like yesterday, everything is so crystal clear. I don't want to go back to those days. It was nice not having to work...being in school. That comfort factor was a cushion. Now I don't really have one of those anymore. It's odd how things change...people get older, grow apart, die...it all happens. I don't even know why I'm talking about all of this stuff. I guess it's been on my mind. I really am starting to despise my workplace. The people there are so fake, and when I talk...it's like they don't hear me. I want so bad to bitch people out there all day long, but that wouldn't be very professional of me. Lol.
This weekend,Dave took me to Blake's Cider Mill for a hayride and some cider & donuts. Then we went to one of his football games that he had to coach, and they won. So that was a plus. He also took me to the store where his dad used to work...his dad was a butcher. It was interesting visiting somewhere where Dave Sr. hadn't walked through the door in over a year...but his presence was still there. I know it made Dave a little sad, but it was good for him to go in there. He really misses his dad. It's sad. Later on that night, we watched 13 Ghosts. Sunday Dave went to the Lions game, and I cleaned my room. I got a lot done, which is a relief. I got some of "Our" pictures hung up on my walls...they look so cute. I really love him with all of my heart. He is a good guy, with a heart of gold.
I'm so tired, and I want someone to chat with...but no one is on. Or, at least not visible! I did chat with an old friend earlier...one of my sisters ex-friends. Him and I try to stay in touch. He went to the second Kid Rock show...and he even had a backstage pass. UHHH!!! He knows Kid Rock...which is pretty damn slick in my book. Dave and I went to the Thursday night show...and it kicked ass. Lynyrd Skynyrd was AWESOME!!! I had goose bumps their entire show. Freebird was the highlight of my night. That song, is just so special. Dave bought me one of Lynyrd Skynyrd's shirts. It was a good evening...I got quite a contact buzz...which is always a frightful experience when you're on the express way going 75mph in the rain...swirving almost into the cement dividers.
The radio right now is playing 7 Fleetwood Mac songs back to back...which is awesome. I could listen to their music for the rest of my life and still love it. The Chain is on right now...and I remember the first time I heard this song...I was in my other bedroom sitting on the floor reading the cd booklet to the Rumours cd that I just got that day. When I heard this song...it was like,"Damnnnn...this is a kick ass song." What song stands for is just brilliant. It's about breaking up with someone, but not breaking the chain that links you.
And for some more depressing news, today is my sister Dawn's 30th birthday. I can remember when we were just little kids. Where did the time go? It seems so far away, but yet so clear. Tomorrow my nephew starts his first day of preschool. How exciting. My little baby is growing up. Dave and I got his this spiderman pumpkin at the cider mill and he carries it everywhere. He told me it's his best friend...and it talks to him. : ) He is getting so big and smart. He knows his colors really good...and he just amazes me each time I see him now. My little baby nephew is just as precious. He's so innocent and tiny. I love those two boys so much, it's like they are my own.
Well, I should probably get going now. I need to get ready for work and bed. I don't even want to think about tomorrow or the rest of the week, it's so depressing. OH WELL! I'm gonna look into transferring to another department. Maybe somewhere where I can carry a gun? Maybe! Later!
I have a lot of thoughts in my head, some good some bad. Memories of the past...places, people, conversations. It's funny how a year can change so drastically. I drive along in my car listening to the radio...and remember the first time I heard certain songs...what I was doing, who I was with. It's ironic. Pink Floyd man, like now, Brain Damage is on...and it's funny how I just phase out and think of this time last year. Lying on my bed...talking on the phone...with the windows open...smelling the dead leaves...cuddled in my bed with my stuffed animals. It seems just like yesterday, everything is so crystal clear. I don't want to go back to those days. It was nice not having to work...being in school. That comfort factor was a cushion. Now I don't really have one of those anymore. It's odd how things change...people get older, grow apart, die...it all happens. I don't even know why I'm talking about all of this stuff. I guess it's been on my mind. I really am starting to despise my workplace. The people there are so fake, and when I talk...it's like they don't hear me. I want so bad to bitch people out there all day long, but that wouldn't be very professional of me. Lol.
This weekend,Dave took me to Blake's Cider Mill for a hayride and some cider & donuts. Then we went to one of his football games that he had to coach, and they won. So that was a plus. He also took me to the store where his dad used to work...his dad was a butcher. It was interesting visiting somewhere where Dave Sr. hadn't walked through the door in over a year...but his presence was still there. I know it made Dave a little sad, but it was good for him to go in there. He really misses his dad. It's sad. Later on that night, we watched 13 Ghosts. Sunday Dave went to the Lions game, and I cleaned my room. I got a lot done, which is a relief. I got some of "Our" pictures hung up on my walls...they look so cute. I really love him with all of my heart. He is a good guy, with a heart of gold.
I'm so tired, and I want someone to chat with...but no one is on. Or, at least not visible! I did chat with an old friend earlier...one of my sisters ex-friends. Him and I try to stay in touch. He went to the second Kid Rock show...and he even had a backstage pass. UHHH!!! He knows Kid Rock...which is pretty damn slick in my book. Dave and I went to the Thursday night show...and it kicked ass. Lynyrd Skynyrd was AWESOME!!! I had goose bumps their entire show. Freebird was the highlight of my night. That song, is just so special. Dave bought me one of Lynyrd Skynyrd's shirts. It was a good evening...I got quite a contact buzz...which is always a frightful experience when you're on the express way going 75mph in the rain...swirving almost into the cement dividers.
The radio right now is playing 7 Fleetwood Mac songs back to back...which is awesome. I could listen to their music for the rest of my life and still love it. The Chain is on right now...and I remember the first time I heard this song...I was in my other bedroom sitting on the floor reading the cd booklet to the Rumours cd that I just got that day. When I heard this song...it was like,"Damnnnn...this is a kick ass song." What song stands for is just brilliant. It's about breaking up with someone, but not breaking the chain that links you.
And for some more depressing news, today is my sister Dawn's 30th birthday. I can remember when we were just little kids. Where did the time go? It seems so far away, but yet so clear. Tomorrow my nephew starts his first day of preschool. How exciting. My little baby is growing up. Dave and I got his this spiderman pumpkin at the cider mill and he carries it everywhere. He told me it's his best friend...and it talks to him. : ) He is getting so big and smart. He knows his colors really good...and he just amazes me each time I see him now. My little baby nephew is just as precious. He's so innocent and tiny. I love those two boys so much, it's like they are my own.
Well, I should probably get going now. I need to get ready for work and bed. I don't even want to think about tomorrow or the rest of the week, it's so depressing. OH WELL! I'm gonna look into transferring to another department. Maybe somewhere where I can carry a gun? Maybe! Later!