Oh Crap, dogg...
Aiya, why why why why why??? Nooooooooooooo. Why why why why why?
So by now you're probably wondering why I'm yelling "why?" - Or maybe you are not, because you really don't care about what I have to say. Either one is fine, lol.
So uhhhh - yea. I tried out for Northgate Soccer this year. I was on JV my freshman year, then I quit. Now, as a senior, I'm back - with no option but to make varsity of get cut. And getting cut would be okay too, I mean - then I would have more time to do my college applications, play cello, practice piano, run, sleep, get halfway decent grades.
Oh but me here - I just happen to get in. Now I just wish I had gotten cut. Like, playing soccer has been one of my goals in high school. I quit my soph and junior years so that I could concentrate more on YPSO (Monday night rehearsals weren't cool with the coaches) and schoolwork. So now, I'm in my first semester senior year, last chance to play - i make it, and it doesn't look like i'll be playing. Neither one of my parents think it would be a good idea to play. I mean, I don't even know if it'd be a good idea to play. But...I want to! (kinda?) Arggggghhhhhhhhhhh.
If i play, I could be wasting my time. I might never get on the starting lineup, I might just run like a bitch in practice (that's what they make us do), and then never see a minute on the field. I might not get into college. I might fail english, government, AND spanish (just clinging on "passing" with a slim margin as it is). Then I might embarrass myself at the concerto competition for OYO, shitting through rococo. And I'll fuck up at the piano recital. Shit I should just forget about playing soccer.
But if I do get on the starting lineup...it would be tite. I might get lucky with everything else, and it'll all turn out okay. I HATE DECISIONS. And this one seems like such a simple one too (don't play). But I hella want to...but this'll be the first time I go against both my parents' wishes...but it could be worth it...but it could fuck up my life...but but but iono, dude.
Shit, I have no idea. I wish I had gotten cut; things would be simpler.
So by now you're probably wondering why I'm yelling "why?" - Or maybe you are not, because you really don't care about what I have to say. Either one is fine, lol.
So uhhhh - yea. I tried out for Northgate Soccer this year. I was on JV my freshman year, then I quit. Now, as a senior, I'm back - with no option but to make varsity of get cut. And getting cut would be okay too, I mean - then I would have more time to do my college applications, play cello, practice piano, run, sleep, get halfway decent grades.
Oh but me here - I just happen to get in. Now I just wish I had gotten cut. Like, playing soccer has been one of my goals in high school. I quit my soph and junior years so that I could concentrate more on YPSO (Monday night rehearsals weren't cool with the coaches) and schoolwork. So now, I'm in my first semester senior year, last chance to play - i make it, and it doesn't look like i'll be playing. Neither one of my parents think it would be a good idea to play. I mean, I don't even know if it'd be a good idea to play. But...I want to! (kinda?) Arggggghhhhhhhhhhh.
If i play, I could be wasting my time. I might never get on the starting lineup, I might just run like a bitch in practice (that's what they make us do), and then never see a minute on the field. I might not get into college. I might fail english, government, AND spanish (just clinging on "passing" with a slim margin as it is). Then I might embarrass myself at the concerto competition for OYO, shitting through rococo. And I'll fuck up at the piano recital. Shit I should just forget about playing soccer.
But if I do get on the starting lineup...it would be tite. I might get lucky with everything else, and it'll all turn out okay. I HATE DECISIONS. And this one seems like such a simple one too (don't play). But I hella want to...but this'll be the first time I go against both my parents' wishes...but it could be worth it...but it could fuck up my life...but but but iono, dude.
Shit, I have no idea. I wish I had gotten cut; things would be simpler.