Welps...
I'd told my parents and everybody that I was going to shut off AIM until October 9. It's late night of October 5, and I've still been signing online just about every day. Well, that's going to stop right NOW. I just uninstalled AIM, and I'll reinstall it when I can't stay away from it any longer.
I just need to focus now. I really do have SAT IIs (Chemistry and Writing) this Saturday. And then right after that I'll be going to Stanford University for a Cello Audition, as part of my Fine Arts Supplement to my Early Action Application. It's going to be a tough day. Today I took a practice Chemistry test (my 4th in total) and the score I got was an improvement, but it still wasn't what I was looking for. So I pulled out a College Text, and plan on reading 7 chapters by Friday. Writing...ehhh, we'll just see what happens for that one.
As for Stanford, I'm playing Elgar Concerto I,II, and Bach Suite III - Prelude. To me, they actually sound pretty good. The Elgar is better than it was at competition back in May/June, and I'd only picked it up two weeks ago. Same with Bach, I started it less than a month ago. So maybe my cello playing is really turning around, who knows. But I want to give Stanford a good showing. I probably won't be auditioning to many other schools, don't have the skills like Maestro Bryan, haha.
And I told myself I wouldn't care about my first quarter grades this year. It's almost midway through, and I just found out that I'm nearly flunking half my classes - Spanish, English, and Government. Uhhh...WHY CAN'T I NOT CARE? Shit son. Subconsciously I just can't live with myself with anything lower than an A or something, i feel insecure. WTF? And now I feel all panicky. It's so sad, i swear, it really is. I mean, for one, quarter grades don't matter JACK, and for two - this is MIDWAY through the first quarter. Argh, Stephen - settle down, mate.
Anyway - so I'll be updating and checking stuff online, just not using AIM. Gosh, I really hope I can do this. It's like a tennis match, two sets down, can I still come back and win?
I just need to focus now. I really do have SAT IIs (Chemistry and Writing) this Saturday. And then right after that I'll be going to Stanford University for a Cello Audition, as part of my Fine Arts Supplement to my Early Action Application. It's going to be a tough day. Today I took a practice Chemistry test (my 4th in total) and the score I got was an improvement, but it still wasn't what I was looking for. So I pulled out a College Text, and plan on reading 7 chapters by Friday. Writing...ehhh, we'll just see what happens for that one.
As for Stanford, I'm playing Elgar Concerto I,II, and Bach Suite III - Prelude. To me, they actually sound pretty good. The Elgar is better than it was at competition back in May/June, and I'd only picked it up two weeks ago. Same with Bach, I started it less than a month ago. So maybe my cello playing is really turning around, who knows. But I want to give Stanford a good showing. I probably won't be auditioning to many other schools, don't have the skills like Maestro Bryan, haha.
And I told myself I wouldn't care about my first quarter grades this year. It's almost midway through, and I just found out that I'm nearly flunking half my classes - Spanish, English, and Government. Uhhh...WHY CAN'T I NOT CARE? Shit son. Subconsciously I just can't live with myself with anything lower than an A or something, i feel insecure. WTF? And now I feel all panicky. It's so sad, i swear, it really is. I mean, for one, quarter grades don't matter JACK, and for two - this is MIDWAY through the first quarter. Argh, Stephen - settle down, mate.
Anyway - so I'll be updating and checking stuff online, just not using AIM. Gosh, I really hope I can do this. It's like a tennis match, two sets down, can I still come back and win?