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[himynameisfifi]

This week has been an incredibly shitty week and it's only Tuesday. First, sunday I went to work late and Ernie's been mad at me for like a month and he wouldn't tell me why and so I was like whatever, if you're not gonna tell me I'm not gonna worry about it, so fuck that. Then all of a sudden on sunday he walks by me in the chair and says, "I hate tattletales." Yeah, okay way to act like you're in 4th grade. Fuck that. Then the only thing I want to do is go home, so at 5 when my shift is over, I go to change and come out as they're putting the vacuum in the pool, because Kristina his gf had told me that "it's Ernie's job," as in he's the one that always does it, so I ask if they care if I go home, since it's 5 and that's when our shift is done. So Ernie says, "No, I don't care if you go home, but I'm gonna tell Catherine....." She's one of our bosses. I didn't even hear the rest of what he said, I was so infuriated that I turned around and walked out. Fuck that. The whole reason I even put on my fall availability that I could work sundays was because you get time and a half for putting the dog in and for some reason I'm not even getting that.

So I come back to school and I think it was monday night, but I'm not sure..I fucked up and went so overboard with a joke on Kobie. I hate when I do that. I always used to do it with my mom too and I don't know when I can grow up and stop. And then last night after the volleyball game, apparently I kept going with a joke I didn't even start. I fucking hate this. Whenever I do something wrong, it gets followed with so many other things and they break me down so much.

Right now I just feel like shit and I don't know where to go.