I WANNA START A FIGHT
so i'm wondering... when will it be time to let go?
i see her status on facebook. a simple status, all it says is "caitlin is at chris's".
why can't i be over it? i still feel like this is a competition in some way, i feel like i need to win. win what? i don't know. win the satisfaction of them being over i guess. i don't think i can be over this until that happens. but what happens when they end is something i don't think i'm prepared for...
what if they do break up and he tries to pursue me again?
it makes it 50% easier saying no to him when he has a girlfriend. but when he doesn't...
it's all up to me and my own strength, my own morals, my own dignity, my own self respect.
in the past, those have proven to fail me when it comes to him.
siggggh.
i see her status on facebook. a simple status, all it says is "caitlin is at chris's".
why can't i be over it? i still feel like this is a competition in some way, i feel like i need to win. win what? i don't know. win the satisfaction of them being over i guess. i don't think i can be over this until that happens. but what happens when they end is something i don't think i'm prepared for...
what if they do break up and he tries to pursue me again?
it makes it 50% easier saying no to him when he has a girlfriend. but when he doesn't...
it's all up to me and my own strength, my own morals, my own dignity, my own self respect.
in the past, those have proven to fail me when it comes to him.
siggggh.