I cunt SCHLEEP!!!
Well, fuckin' shit. I can't sleep! I got an 8 a.m. class tomorrow, and everytime I have this kind of schedule, I can't sleep!
So ya, today was pretty......boring. Did my usual every other day lifting schedule where I beat the weights till my muscles are crying, and cruise on the excersize bike for an hour as if I had legs of Lance Armstrong. But, as far as I know, 3-4 people have had a terrible weekend that I know. It makes me feel better that I'm not the only one. I've been talking to Meghan Oachs alot lately. Me and her used to be pretty tight back in the days of H.S. Something happened (If your reading this, please inform me.) to where we just completely stopped hanging out, haha. It usually works that way with me, but I don't know what to tell you. Also, another huge step in the right direction, Annie's best friend Jordan forgave me for the stupid shit I put her through. For some reason, it means alot. How someone can forgive such an asshole, such as me, is beyond me. But, it does show you that people around you have a bigger heart than you would expect.
I feel like right now that I am in the best shape of my life, and I'm only getting in better shape. Rediculous, because I was 215 pounds and I just kicked myself in the ass and gave myself a boost to get in shape. It's actually taught me alot about myself, and how dedicated I can be to something (and someone... ya...). Hopefully, my dedication will rollover to school, and so far it has. I've been kicking the llama's ass for the weeks I have been here. Shit, my name is even on my Psychology study guide! I don't see your name on it, huh, huh??? Ya, that's what I thought. Speaking of Psychology, I, being the leader of peons, have started up alittle out-of-school Psychology study group with some pretty down people. The likes of Ben, Chris, Cammy, Caitlin (Who I always thought her name was Krista, but for some reason I would call her that and she would never correct me), and Nicole should be showing up.
Speaking of killer people in Ohio, I've made a new friend. This kid Chris who is in my Psych. class, is fucking kickass. We both have these crazy insane stories to tell eachother and share the same interests. Thank god, I found someone that is pretty cool in or around Elyria. This place is reaking of shit, and smells like dirty skunk (If ya know what I mean..) Also, I got Steve, and his roomie Brian who are both the shit. Speaking of them... *Spanks the enter key for new paragraph of anger*
The fucking Grand Marquis took $2,500.00 worth of damage at the Jug Off. What.... the... fuck.... Just another added bonus to my life of shit. Woo!!! Thank god I was able to take the Blazer to Baltimore. OHHH wait, I think I would have been better off home, haha. Forgot about that one.
And speaking of that! I think that has to be one of the top 10 worst experiences of my life. Thank you!!!! I don't even know how to attack this situation. I don't even want to think about anything having to do with the situation. I think you get the point. You think you sitting in your bed crying is bad? I wish you could have felt the way I did when I was driving 6 hours back to Ohio. Oh, and that one picture in your webshots album is real classy, lemme tell ya. I still love you, though.
Well, I leave you all this song snippet. It'll probably convey my emotion better than I can myself. I'll probably feeling this way for awhile.
"Fell in through the depths of a broken heart again,
I get lost in your eye and I can't help but feel like I'll never find love there again."