Lyrics.....angry lyrics. XD
Evanescence - Cloud Nine
If you want to live, let live.
If you want to go, let go.
I'm not afraid to dream, to sleep, sleep forever.
I don't need to touch the sky.
I just want to feel that high,
And you refuse to lift me.
Guess it wasn't real after all.
Guess it wasn't real all along.
If I fall and all is lost,
It's where I belong.
If you want to live, let live.
If you want to go, let go.
I'm never gonna be your sweet, sweet surrender.
Guess it wasn't real after all.
Guess it wasn't real all along.
If I fall and all is lost,
No light to lead the way,
Remember that all alone is where I belong.
In a dream,
Will you give your love to me?
Beg my broken heart to beat,
Save my life, change my mind.
If I fall and all is lost.
No light to lead the way.
Remember that all alone is where I belong.
Evanescence - Sweet Sacrifice
It's true, we're all a little insane.
But it's so clear,
Now that I'm unchained.
Fear is only in our minds,
Taking over all the time.
Fear is only in our minds but it's taking over all the time.
You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
You know you live to break me. Don't deny.
Sweet sacrifice.
One day I'm gonna forget your name,
And one sweet day, you're gonna drown in my lost pain.
Fear is only in our minds,
Taking over all the time.
Fear is only in our minds but it's taking over all the time.
You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
And oh you love to hate me don't you, honey?
I'm your sacrifice.
(I dream in darkness
I sleep to die,
Raise the silence,
Erase my life,
Our burning ashes
Blacken the day,
A world of nothingness,
Blow me away.)
Do you wonder why you hate?
Are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?
You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
You know you live to break me. Don't deny.
Sweet sacrifice.
Evanescence - All That I'm Living For
All that I'm living for,
All that I'm dying for,
All that I can't ignore alone at night.
I can feel the night beginning.
Separate me from the living.
Understanding me,
After all I've seen.
Piecing every thought together,
Find the words to make me better.
If I only knew how to pull myself apart.
All that I'm living for,
All that I'm dying for,
All that I can't ignore alone at night.
All that I'm wanted for,
Although I wanted more.
Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me.
I believe that dreams are sacred.
Take my darkest fears and play them
Like a lullaby,
Like a reason why,
Like a play of my obsessions,
Make me understand the lesson,
So I'll find myself,
So I won't be lost again.
All that I'm living for,
All that I'm dying for,
All that I can't ignore alone at night.
All that I'm wanted for,
Although I wanted more.
Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me.
Guess I thought I'd have to change the world to make you see me,
To be the one.
I could have run forever,
But how for would I have come
Without mourning your love?
All that I'm living for,
All that I'm dying for,
All that I can't ignore alone at night.
All that I'm wanted for,
Although I wanted more.
Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me.
Should it hurt to love you?
Should I feel like I do?
Should I lock the last open door,
My ghosts are gaining on me.
As mad as I am, I still miss him. He promised me forever, and couldn't do it. He admitted his fear of committment, and how our relationship was getting to that point. So he ran.
Fuck. I'm SO hung over right now. I didn't think I drank that much, either. But we never do. And then I bawled myself to sleep because I talked to him last night like a DUMBASS. I still don't have the answers I want. Or need. Or I guess....the answers I want to hear. Something that makes sense. Nothing makes sense. Not to me at least. *shrugs* But I guess that I don't get to understand.....
Oh god. I need more sleep. My head feels like I was head-butting all night, and my throat feels like there's rocks in it..... Stupid alcohol. Stupid depression.
Oh. I forgot to mention this. I was up for 37 and a half hours after we broke up. I didn't sleep. I couldn't. I went to work on no sleep. Didn't wreck anything. I'm still so stressed out about this whole thing that I still can't eat much, I don't want to sleep, all I want to do is smoke.....and GET FUCKING LAID. Jesus Christ, I couldn't even get that up to a MONTH before he and I break up. Shit.
I don't know what's going to happen to the stuff. I want to keep the shirts, but everything else. I can't look at it. I bawl. I think I might just bring it to his mom's house or something. Like the cardboard stand up I want. My room will be empty without that. But the framed photo....and the camera still sitting in my room that I can't get developed because it's mainly pictures of the both of us.....
Fuck. I don't want to feel like this. I don't want to be this depressed. I don't want to feel this bad for myself. I still fucking worry about him. I don't think he's going to get out of THIS depression without me. And I must look like a french whore right now with the blood shot and puffy eyes, and the make up smearing down my face. I don't think anyone else will have me the way I am. I'm annoying, clingy, needy....spoiled, selfish....jesus, the list goes on. I'm going to be like this for a while, huh? Self-loathing, a drunk?
And now my lj icon is more true than ever. Except I'm not sure if I want to drown myself more or not, yet....
If you want to live, let live.
If you want to go, let go.
I'm not afraid to dream, to sleep, sleep forever.
I don't need to touch the sky.
I just want to feel that high,
And you refuse to lift me.
Guess it wasn't real after all.
Guess it wasn't real all along.
If I fall and all is lost,
It's where I belong.
If you want to live, let live.
If you want to go, let go.
I'm never gonna be your sweet, sweet surrender.
Guess it wasn't real after all.
Guess it wasn't real all along.
If I fall and all is lost,
No light to lead the way,
Remember that all alone is where I belong.
In a dream,
Will you give your love to me?
Beg my broken heart to beat,
Save my life, change my mind.
If I fall and all is lost.
No light to lead the way.
Remember that all alone is where I belong.
Evanescence - Sweet Sacrifice
It's true, we're all a little insane.
But it's so clear,
Now that I'm unchained.
Fear is only in our minds,
Taking over all the time.
Fear is only in our minds but it's taking over all the time.
You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
You know you live to break me. Don't deny.
Sweet sacrifice.
One day I'm gonna forget your name,
And one sweet day, you're gonna drown in my lost pain.
Fear is only in our minds,
Taking over all the time.
Fear is only in our minds but it's taking over all the time.
You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
And oh you love to hate me don't you, honey?
I'm your sacrifice.
(I dream in darkness
I sleep to die,
Raise the silence,
Erase my life,
Our burning ashes
Blacken the day,
A world of nothingness,
Blow me away.)
Do you wonder why you hate?
Are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?
You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
You know you live to break me. Don't deny.
Sweet sacrifice.
Evanescence - All That I'm Living For
All that I'm living for,
All that I'm dying for,
All that I can't ignore alone at night.
I can feel the night beginning.
Separate me from the living.
Understanding me,
After all I've seen.
Piecing every thought together,
Find the words to make me better.
If I only knew how to pull myself apart.
All that I'm living for,
All that I'm dying for,
All that I can't ignore alone at night.
All that I'm wanted for,
Although I wanted more.
Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me.
I believe that dreams are sacred.
Take my darkest fears and play them
Like a lullaby,
Like a reason why,
Like a play of my obsessions,
Make me understand the lesson,
So I'll find myself,
So I won't be lost again.
All that I'm living for,
All that I'm dying for,
All that I can't ignore alone at night.
All that I'm wanted for,
Although I wanted more.
Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me.
Guess I thought I'd have to change the world to make you see me,
To be the one.
I could have run forever,
But how for would I have come
Without mourning your love?
All that I'm living for,
All that I'm dying for,
All that I can't ignore alone at night.
All that I'm wanted for,
Although I wanted more.
Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me.
Should it hurt to love you?
Should I feel like I do?
Should I lock the last open door,
My ghosts are gaining on me.
As mad as I am, I still miss him. He promised me forever, and couldn't do it. He admitted his fear of committment, and how our relationship was getting to that point. So he ran.
Fuck. I'm SO hung over right now. I didn't think I drank that much, either. But we never do. And then I bawled myself to sleep because I talked to him last night like a DUMBASS. I still don't have the answers I want. Or need. Or I guess....the answers I want to hear. Something that makes sense. Nothing makes sense. Not to me at least. *shrugs* But I guess that I don't get to understand.....
Oh god. I need more sleep. My head feels like I was head-butting all night, and my throat feels like there's rocks in it..... Stupid alcohol. Stupid depression.
Oh. I forgot to mention this. I was up for 37 and a half hours after we broke up. I didn't sleep. I couldn't. I went to work on no sleep. Didn't wreck anything. I'm still so stressed out about this whole thing that I still can't eat much, I don't want to sleep, all I want to do is smoke.....and GET FUCKING LAID. Jesus Christ, I couldn't even get that up to a MONTH before he and I break up. Shit.
I don't know what's going to happen to the stuff. I want to keep the shirts, but everything else. I can't look at it. I bawl. I think I might just bring it to his mom's house or something. Like the cardboard stand up I want. My room will be empty without that. But the framed photo....and the camera still sitting in my room that I can't get developed because it's mainly pictures of the both of us.....
Fuck. I don't want to feel like this. I don't want to be this depressed. I don't want to feel this bad for myself. I still fucking worry about him. I don't think he's going to get out of THIS depression without me. And I must look like a french whore right now with the blood shot and puffy eyes, and the make up smearing down my face. I don't think anyone else will have me the way I am. I'm annoying, clingy, needy....spoiled, selfish....jesus, the list goes on. I'm going to be like this for a while, huh? Self-loathing, a drunk?
And now my lj icon is more true than ever. Except I'm not sure if I want to drown myself more or not, yet....