Broken Heart
It's been a long time since i was able to write a blog. I really miss writing. Now, because of my schedule in Medical School, I'm forced to write notes about how I can save people rather than write to entertain people. I love writing and it helps me cope. I never imagined i will have to use this outlet again to save me from my broken self.
I miss you. Whenever i think about the time when we were still together. I miss the fact that you were always there beside me. You were sweet and gentle with me. You never made me cry. You never made me feel that i needed someone else. Despite all that, i had to hurt you and let you go. A deed i would have to carry as I move on and find my life.
Clouded by pain, I guess you won't understand. It wasn't an easy task to let you go. I told you that countless of times.
I don't want to be selfish every single time i ask for space so that i can review for my chosen path. I should have learned earlier, to discuss things with you so that i wouldn't have to suffer a pain of loneliness like this. But it happened. However much i wished for it, you're gone now. I let you go. I had to. I need to choose only one path. It was not an easy sacrifice. I had to bear the fact that you're going to get angry. If that's what it would take for you to let me go completely then so be it. I loved you so much to let you go, but i had to.
I'm sorry...
This Christmas, i only wish for you to understand.
Merry Christmas Matthew Skallet.
I loved you.
I did.
I miss you. Whenever i think about the time when we were still together. I miss the fact that you were always there beside me. You were sweet and gentle with me. You never made me cry. You never made me feel that i needed someone else. Despite all that, i had to hurt you and let you go. A deed i would have to carry as I move on and find my life.
Clouded by pain, I guess you won't understand. It wasn't an easy task to let you go. I told you that countless of times.
I don't want to be selfish every single time i ask for space so that i can review for my chosen path. I should have learned earlier, to discuss things with you so that i wouldn't have to suffer a pain of loneliness like this. But it happened. However much i wished for it, you're gone now. I let you go. I had to. I need to choose only one path. It was not an easy sacrifice. I had to bear the fact that you're going to get angry. If that's what it would take for you to let me go completely then so be it. I loved you so much to let you go, but i had to.
I'm sorry...
This Christmas, i only wish for you to understand.
Merry Christmas Matthew Skallet.
I loved you.
I did.