life
I think there comes a time when a person figures out they have made everything too complicated. I'm not yet to that point but dangerously close. There have been plenty of new responsibilites and interests I'm adding to my already sufficent pile. How annoying it is to realize that you have to prioritize. At the same time what a fun challenge. I think this message may be a little cryptic and I apoligize for that. I told my friend Paul that I don't have time for a relationship and that I want to focus on work and church. I've told myself that I don't have time to relax and that I need to stay in constant motion. I've tried to eliminate all extra social time. I'm not sure how much of all of that I can actually maintain as reality or even an ideal. It seems that my whole life is to be an example and if one aspect is missing I'm letting someone down, even when it comes to dating. Perhaps it is a good thing that most people believe I date more than I actually do. At the same time, life is good.