[fic] whispering breeze - part 9
Title: Whispering Breeze
Author: hime_no_koi
Pairing: Akame
Genre: Fluff, romance, yaoi, and quite angst for this chapter if you ask me >< (don’t kill me!)
Rating: Back to PG-14^^ haha
Summary: Kazuya and Jin had been going out since the day Jin confesses his feeling to Kazuya at their junior high school graduation. Kazuya had been in love with Jin secretly back then when they still at junior high. But now that they had been going out, Kazuya still feel nervous every time he with Jin… even sometimes think that he’s not worth being Jin’s boyfriend
Written in Kame POV’s
Author’s note: Hi, this is the first time I write fanfic and join LJ. English definitely not my skill but I’m learning it to improve my skill, I determine to improve it *eyes burn with fire*. Forgive me for any bad grammar and word
Part 9
My eyes fluttered open as the dim light from the sun came through the thin fabric of the curtain, the bird singing sounded in my ears and the first thing that I saw is Jin’s sleeping faces with his arms still wrapped around my body. It looks like Jin didn’t let me go since last night because as I remembered he was holding me exactly as the same position he is now
A smile, a sad one though, across my face as I roam my eyes on his sleeping faces. There’s a part of me that feeling so happy because this was actually the first time I was greeted with this kind of sight when I woke up, it felt so wonderful waking up in the arms of the person you love. Although I couldn’t help but get really embarrassed when I recall what had we done last night…
And another part of me felt so sad… So sad that because today is the day… the day where Jin’s going to somewhere far away where I couldn’t reach him, and now I really wished that morning had never come right now, that way maybe Jin wouldn’t leave me
Sighing, I snuggle closer to him, facing my face against his naked chest that felt so much warmed and closed my eyes, inhaling the scent came from his body
Why is it so hard to let him go? Why did I fell so much in love with him? Why do I felt like that he’s my whole world?
…That’s not good, thinking about those kind of thing will only make myself hard to let him go
If there’s only just some way to made him stay… or if there’s only just some way for me to go with him
Should I said to him that I’m pregnant?
……
…Yeah, right. Like it would really happened
Am I really asking that much just wanting him to stay right here beside me?
I open my eyes when I felt him stir in his sleep, slowly seeing him opening his eyes before I saw him smiling at me in a way that always success to made my heart beating fast
“Morning…” he smiles at me and I try my best to look cheerful before smiling back at him “Morning Jin…” I greeted him back
I sigh in content when I felt his hand caressing my cheek in the gentlest way. “…Um, are you… hurt?” I look at him questioningly hearing his question
“Well, you know…” I became even more curious when I thought I saw him blushed a bit. “Well… after last night…” as he said that realization hit me and I looked away with a blush adorning my face
“Um… W-W-Well… I-I… err… a bit…” I said embarrassedly. Well… my hips and my… well… you know… it is felt hurt so much. Gosh… I never knew it would be hurt ‘that’ much… but, not that I regret it though
“I’m really sorry…” a kiss landed on my forehead while his hand still caressing my cheek. “It must be hurt quite a lot…”
“I-It’s okay…” I reassured, smiling at him. I don’t want him to regret what we have done last night. I want him to cherish last night moment, just like the way I do
“Ah… it’s morning already, huh? Times really go by quickly…” he whines and my heart ached when I remember again that he had to leave today
“W-We should go shower… a-and have breakfast. My mom must be awake at this time…” I said, tried to sound cheerful and sat up when suddenly I felt a hand grabbed my arm, making me to look at him surprised
“…Don’t look like that…”
I stare at him confused at what he had said. Why did he say that?
“What do you mean?” I smile at him and saw him shook his head
“…You look like you’re about to cry” his answer make me really surprised and make me nervous
“N-No I’m not…” I forced a laugh, telling him that there’s nothing wrong with me but then the smile on my face faded away when I saw him sat up, staring at me right onto my eyes and make my heart beating so fast
“You are” he said, his hand working to brushed my bangs away. “You’re forcing yourself…” at his statement I looked away, knowing that he had said the truth
I know… I know that I’m just trying to fool myself, fooling myself that I’m going to be alright even if Jin is not here with me. But crying and complaining won’t do any good either, if I keep crying and sad, I will only make Jin even worried and I don’t want that, I don’t want to make him worry about me
“I’ll… I’ll be okay…” I smile at him. “Please… don’t worry about me” I said, placing a hand on top of his that holding my cheek. “Beside… crying won’t make things better…”
There’s a hint of sadness as I stare at his brown orbs and it makes me sad as well. “Kazuya… I’m sorry… I’m really sorry” he whispered those words as he pulled me into his embrace, feeling him hiding his face on my neck. “I really wished that I don’t have to go”
Please don’t, please don’t leave me. Please stay right here with me…
How I really wished that I could say that to him, but I couldn’t. It would be really selfish of me… He already kept saying that he was sorry about it when he shouldn’t… even though it was not his fault, he kept saying that he was sorry
And it makes me realize… that I want to do something for him. And that’s not make him worry and sad. I want him to be able to go without worrying about me, I want him to go with a smile adorning his face, even if it would brought tears to mine
“It’s okay Jin… It’s not your fault… It’s no one’s fault” I said and smile at him despite the fact that I was crying inside
“Kazuya…” he pull back a bit, still trapping me in his arms as one of his hand move to my cheek and I found myself feeling so much nervous when he lean closer to me, lips only a few inch away as I could feel his breath on my face
“I love you Kazuya…” with that word came out from his lips, he pull me into a sweet and loving kiss
My body froze when I heard the sound of the door knocked followed with my mother voice. “Kazuya? Jin-kun? Are you two awake” we pulled away from the kiss and starting to panic while looking around to get our shirt that laying on the floor
“Crap! This isn’t good at all…” I heard him muttering something like that but I didn’t really pay attention to that since I was too panic and hurriedly get off, but unfortunately ended up falling into the floor
“Whoa! Kazuya!” I heard him called out my name as he rushed to my side and helping me to stand up. “You okay?” he asked
“U-Un” I just nodded at him and quickly took my clothes to wear it. Ouch… my lower part… it hurt so much… must be the reason why I fell earlier…
“Kazuya? Jin-kun?” mom voice sounded again from the other side of the door and this time I walked to the door… well, limping to be exact
I unlock the door before opening the door, I was greeted with mom face. “Oh, you awake” she smiled
“W-what is it?” I asked, trying to acted as if there’s nothing happened
“Ah, morning there Jin-kun” my mom greeted Jin and I turn back to look at Jin who smile back at hear while saying, “Morning Kamenashi-san”
“Ah, you wore your shirt backward Jin-kun” I froze upon hearing that and stare at Jin while biting my lower lip nervously. I could see that he was really nervous from the look of his face and he smile goofily at my mom. “A…hahaha… how stupid I am” he laugh nervously and I starting to wish that my mother would finally go away
My wishes was granted as she said that breakfast already done and told us to get prepare before she walked away. Closing the door, I sigh in relief while leaning my back against the door
“Phew! That was close…” I heard Jin said and looked up to him before said. “I guess… we should take a shower”
He look at me with a playful smile on his face that makes me confuse. “We?” he asked and as realization hit me I blushed and quickly explained, “N-No! I-I-I mean… you and I… w-wait, I-I mean… yes… both of us… b-but went to shower alone… n-not together…” I starting to blabbering and slowly the sentence went die on my throat when I heard him laughing
“Oh you’re just too cute~” he said, still laughing and I pout at him, sulking. Man… why he always like teasing me? I get the feeling that he started to become like Tat-chan… but I had to say I love hearing him laugh like that. Every moment like this always felt so much fun that I start to forget about Jin’s leave that always makes me sad
If only this moment will last forever…
“Hey, you’re spacing out…” I snapped out of my mind hearing what he said and look at him. “S-sorry…” I apologize to him
“Well, can I took a shower first?” he asked and I nodded at him, walking to the wardrobe and look for a spare towel for him when suddenly I felt arms enveloped into a hug from behind, making me froze and my heart starting to beating out loud
“J-Jin…” I called him out, no matter how much relax and happy I am being hugged like this by him I couldn’t help but worried, knowing that the door was unlocked this time and there’s a possibility my mom would come here again
“…you know that I love you so much, right?” he whispered against my ears, tightening his arms around me and I could feel my heart beating even faster than before
“Jin…”
“I love you Kazuya… I love you so much… you mean everything to me… and it won’t change no matter what…” he place a kiss against my bare neck that send shiver through my body
Why did he say that? What is he trying to say to me?
If he continue talking something like that… making me felt like fly up to the high sky I would be to happy… and it would made me even harder to be separated from him…
“Well, I’ll be taking shower first then~” he said and I blush when he placed a kiss on my cheek before taking the towel from me and went to the bathroom, leaving me standing there alone
Sighing, I walk to the bed and sat on it, hanging my head low as another sigh came out from my lips. Jin will leave today… and that thought alone always made my heart ached
I guess it would even hurt when it comes the time Jin had to leave?
Sighing in frustration and rest my arms against my face
Am I… going to be really okay?
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After both of us finished taking a shower, we went downstairs to grab some breakfast that my mom made for us. During the whole breakfast, my mom keep asking Jin question regarding his leaving today, and that kind of conversation doesn’t make me any better at all, so I just stay silent during the whole breakfast, except if my mom or Jin asking me question of course
Finishing breakfast, both Jin and I went back to my room since he said that he want to prepare to get home since the plane that he and his family going to ride is going to take off at 01:00 PM o’clock, and it’s already 10 Am right now… three more hours… he’s going to leave me
I won’t be seeing him for such a really long time… or maybe… I wouldn’t be able to see him
“I should get prepare now…” I heard him say once we get inside my room. I stand near the door as I just keep watching him putting some of his clothes to his backpack, presenting his back to me
…Why am I felt so incredibly lonely just by watching his back right now? He was still standing there in front of me… he still standing in the same place as I am… so why I do feel like he’s so far away right now?
I didn’t know what’s gotten into me when the next thing I realize is I’m walking to where he is, bending to reach my arms and enveloped him into a tight hug from behind
I can feel that he was surprised by my action since he stop whatever it is he’s doing right now. But I don’t care at all… I want to stay close to him right now
“Kazuya? are you okay?” I heard him asked but didn’t answer and just burying my face into his shoulder, trying so hard to prevent the tears that wanted to escaped from eyes
“Kazuya…” this time he whispered my name so softly that I thought I was going to break hearing it, feeling how much love that he put even if he just calling my name like that, but I ignore him again, tightening my arms around him before I feel his hand on top of mine
“Kazuya… I have to leave now…” his words this time bringing me back to reality and slowly letting my arms go around him even though I really didn’t want to let go of him
I look down, not wanting him to look at my face because I know how miserable I look right now. But then his hand grabbing my chin, forcing me to look at him. And when I saw his face, I was really surprised
Because I saw tear trailing down from his eye to his beautiful face
“I love you so much Kazuya…” he whispered, trailing his thumb against my cheek to wipe away my tear away that I didn’t even realize already falling from my eye
Please… please don’t cry…
“I love you… so much…”
I know… I know that because he already telling me for a thousand time
“Ah! Crap! Why am I crying?” he laugh dryly, wiping away the tear that managed to escape from his eye earlier before staring back at me with his most bright smile, pulling me into his embrace then
“Will you… come to see me off later?”
To that question, I didn’t answer him. Because I seriously don’t know what to do, and I don’t think I would be able seeing he walked away from me
He pulls back and stared at me with his beautiful eyes, caressing my hair in such a loving touch. “It’s okay if you don’t want to” he said
“Kazuya… I didn’t know when I’ll be coming back so… so I won’t ask you to wait for me…”
…What? What is he saying? Why is he talked like that? Why does he talk as if he wanted to let me go?
“But… remember this…” he cupped my face with both of his hand, staring at me right into my eyes. “Don’t ever forget… that I wouldn’t stop loving you…”
My heart hammering inside me as that sentence escape from his lips, leaving me speechless with his declaration
Why? How could he be so sure of that?
Why did he love me that much?
I snapped out of my mind when he placed his lips on mine, feeling his arms wrapped around my waist to pulled me closer to him. At that moment… I could feel how desperate he is when he kiss me, he kiss me as if it would be the last time he’s going to do it…
So I close my eyes, enjoying our last kiss… feeling his feeling that he poured to that kiss
I love you Jin… I love you so much…
He broke the kiss and the moment I open my eyes, I was met with his loving gaze that stare back at mine. How I wanted to keep him here now, keeping him here with him
But I couldn’t… because I didn’t have the right to do that
“I’ll be leaving now…” I saw him turn around to grab his bag before facing me again with a smile spread on his face despite the fact how lonely he is from the look on his eyes
“Goodbye… Kazuya”
With that, he walked passed me and went out of the room, leaving me there standing motionlessly until I finally break and fall into the floor with my knees
“Jin…” tears streaming out from my eyes as I called out his name with a broken voice even though I know it was useless, because it wouldn’t make him stop leaving
“Jin…” another tears keep falling from my eyes I cry harder, calling his name for a countless time as if it would bring him here
I was already crying for more than two hours in my bed and this time the tears finally came dry. My mom found me lying down on the floor while crying and bringing me to the bed earlier, she keep asking the reason I cried but I didn’t pay any attention to her since the only thing I do is crying, but then I guess she knew why I cried when I called Jin’s name
I take a look at the clock that showing it was already half past twelve, feeling my heart even numb and how weak my body felt
In the end, I didn’t have the courage to see Jin off…
I’m such a coward…
I… I wanted to see him, I really wanted too but… I’m really scared to face the truth that he’s going to leave me
I… I’m so horrible…
My heart almost jumped out from my chest when suddenly the door of my room fly open, making me to sat up and turn to look who the intruder
My eyes widen in shock upon seeing Tat-chan and a boy with blonde hair standing next to him with my mom standing behind them. Who’s that person Tat-chan came with? And… what are they doing here?
“What the heck are you doing here you idiot?!” I was really scared when I saw the blonde hair boy rush toward me while glaring at me
“E-Eh?” not knowing what else to say that’s only the word came out from my lips
“Don’t “eh” me as if you don’t know what I’m trying to say here!” he yell at me and I’m getting really scared here. Just who is he anyway? He just suddenly barging into my room and then yelling at me without me knowing the reason
“Yamashita-kun, yelling at him won’t do any good” I turn to look at Tat-chan who stand next to my mom who have this questioning face as I do before Tat-chan walked over to this Yamashita boy
…wait a minute
Yamashita?
Jin’s best friend?
“You know who I am right?” the blonde hair boy asked me, “I’m Yamashita Tomohisa. Your boyfriend’s best friend”
My eyes widen in shock when I heard his declaration and I nervously turn to look at my mom who looked so shock upon hearing what he said
“Kazuya” I turn back to the boy who standing in front of me when I heard Tat-chan call my name. “Both me and Yamashita came here to take you to see Jin off when he heard from him that you’re not coming” he said and for the first time in my life, I saw Tat-chan glaring at me
Wait a minute… Does that mean… Jin was waiting for me?
But I ignore what he said and looked down, not wanting to met with their look and hoping that they would finally leave me alone. “I… I can’t…”
“What?!” I heard Yamashita yelled again and this time I look up to stare at them as tear trailing down from my eyes that seems make both Tat-chan and Yamashita look at me surprised
“I couldn’t…” between sob I tried my best to talk. “I couldn’t… I’m scared! I’m scared that I won’t be able to let him go if I saw him walked away! Don’t you understand?!” I yell as tears keep trailing down to my cheek
“Then do you understand how Jin really feel right now?!” Yamashita word makes me speechless as I just stare back at him
“He wanted to see you dammit! The only thing he want right now is to see you came to see him off!” I heard him yell at me again as the room filled with silence before he continued, “Can’t you see… Can’t you see how miserable he must feel right now?”
“Can’t you see that you’re the only person that he wanted to see the most right now?!” The room filled with silence again as he finally stops talking
Jin… wants to see me?
I never thought about that… I never thought he does really want to see me…
…why am I such an idiot? He must be felt so sad right now, just like the way I do. He must be feeling lonely… just like the way I do right now…
And yet I was selfish again… I only thought about myself…
Maybe another reason why I don’t want to see Jin go is… because I don’t want to get hurt…
But I was wrong…
By doing that… I would make Jin get hurt and it would hurt me even more. Because I don’t want to hurt him…
“I… I’m really an idiot…” I shook my head and look down, feeling so ashamed that I’m only thinking about myself
“You are” I look up upon hearing that coming from Tat-chan, but to my surprise I saw him smiling at me. “That’s why we decide to came to you, because we know that you won’t see him. And as both yours and Jin’s best friend, we don’t want to see you two apart this way”
A small smile appear on my face hearing what he said, “Best friend come to the rescue, huh?”
“Well, you could say that” Tat-chan smile at me and I saw him offering his hand to me which I took gladly and he help me to stand
“So, you’re going to see Jin right?” Yamashita asked me and I smile at him before nodding. “Yes…”
“We’ll come with you” I heard Tat-chan said and smile at me, “Because who know what’s gonna happen to you if we didn’t take care of you”
I smile at Tat-chan and said, “Thank you very much…”
“Come on! What are waiting for” Yamashita exclaim and I nod to him before we rush out of the room but stopped when my mom suddenly yell at us, “Wait!”
Crap… I forgot about mom…
“Kazuya! What is this all about?!” I heard her asked, making me turn to look at her who looks really ready to explode. “You’re going out with Jin-kun?!”
“Mother…” I called her out gently, trying to make her calm down
“Why you did never told me about this?!”
“I-I’m really sorry because I didn’t tell you about it…” I said before continue, “But… I promise I’ll explain later… right now, there’s something else that I have to do” I look at her pleading, hoping that she understands
None of us talked and I’m starting to get really worried because we’re really going to waste time, but thankfully her word make me broke into a smile, “Fine…”
“Thank you mom” I smile at her before dashing out of the house followed by Tat-chan and Yamashita
Please… please don’t go yet Jin
The three of us trying as fast as we could to run toward Jin’s house since we knows his house quite far from mine. And what come worse… I’m really bad at running
“Hey! Come on! Run faster you turtle!” I heard Yamashita yell as he looks behind to me over his shoulder
“I… am!” I said between pant. Can’t he see that I’m already tried running as fast as I could?! I’m not good at sport!
“Ah! Geez! You’re really are a turtle!” I heard Tat-chan groan and the next thing I knew my wrist was grabbed by him, pulling me to run faster
“Come on! We must hurry!” Yamashita said and before I knew it, he grabbed my other wrist and pulled me to run even faster along with Tat-chan. My feet feel numb and I feel like I’m going to die for running out of breath for running too much
“W-wait… N-not so fast!” I said to both of them while panting
“Don’t you want to see Jin?!” hearing what Yamashita had said I fell silent and just letting them pulled me to the direction of Jin’s house
After a while, both of them stop running and I bent down, trying to catch my breath and wondering what make them stop running until I realized that we maybe had arrived on Jin’s house
“There he is!” I look up hearing what Yamashita said and saw Jin getting out of a house and was about to enter a cab, and before he could do it, Yamashita called him out. “JIN! WAIT”
I saw him turn with his eyes widen as he quickly walked toward where we are. “Y-You guys… what are you-”
“What are you talking about? Of course we came here to see you off” I turn to look at Yamashita who had a smile on his face
“Are you already going to go?” I heard Ueda asked Jin
“Yeah… my parents already went to the airport first with the other cab since the thing that we’re going to brought is way too much that we have to use two cab” he giggle, making me feels relieved somehow when I heard him laughing
“Kazuya…”
Hearing Jin called my name, I slowly turn to look at him face to face a bit unsurely, but all of my doubt was wiped off when I saw a smile form on Jin’s lips. “You came…”
I smile back at him, “I… I forgot to tell you something…” I said to him, earning a questioning look from him. Slowly but surely, I took a step closer until stood right in front of him
“Jin… I love you” reaching out my hand to grab his, I poured all of my love while whispering those word and earn a loving smile from him before pulling me into his embrace
“I love you too Kazuya…” he whisper against my ear so gently and lovingly that it brought tears form in my eyes, hiding my face on his chest and hug him tightly, not wanting to let him go
“Jin… I…” I tried to speak between my sobs, wanting to tell him how much I love him and how he mean so much to me. “I… I’ll be waiting for you…”, as I said those word, he pull me back, staring straight into my eyes as his face written with surprise
“I’ll be waiting for you Jin…” I smile at him, holding his hand again but more tightly this time. “No matter how long it is… I-I’ll be waiting for your return…”
I was surprised when I saw his eyes filled with tears, wondering if I had said something wrong to him but then when he pull me back into his embrace again, a smile formed on my lips as tears also filled on my eyes
“I promise. I’ll come back for you” as that words came out from his lips, I smile wider and hug him back tightly, leaning into his warm
“I know you will…” I hide my face into his chest when a single tear fall from eye as I can feel Jin buried his face into my neck, arms wrapped around each other tightly as we not want to let go of each other
“I’ll call you every day, and I’ll send you a letter from times to times. We can also exchange e-mail as well and chat”
I chuckle at his statement, sighing against his chest. Oh how much I love this person. “I… I’ll have part time job and save the money and then used it to visit you…”
He lean back and asked me, “For real?”
I smile at him, “…I…I’ll do anything just to see you…”
A smile cross on his face and I saw him leaning closer to my face, a bit surprised yet didn’t bothered by it when he planted a kiss on my forehead
“Thank you for your sincere love Kazuya… But I don’t want you to do that…” I was a bit surprised when I hear the answer that I didn’t expect to hear coming from him
“B-But…” I stuttered, looking away from him as I hang my head low, “…Y-you don’t… want to see me?”
I felt hands cupping my face, forcing me to look at Jin in the eyes. “Come on, you know that you’re the one that I would want to see the most when I’m there”
I keep silent, hearing what he was about to say. “I just don’t want you to get sick Kazuya… I want you to be healthy and not tiring yourself…”
“But…” I tried to talk, but then was cut off when a finger place on my lips
“Like I said, I’ll contact you really often. At least that way I think we’ll feel much better…” He smiles at me, caressing my cheek with his hand. “Although I’m sure that I would be dying to see you every day”
“And beside…” I saw him moving closer to me, so close that I could feel his breath against my face and feel his arms wrapped around my waist. “You’ll wait for me right?” he smiles
“So, will you just be patient and wait for me Kazuya?”
I stare at him for a while before smile back at him as I answered, “I will… I trust you that you’ll be back”
“That’s my Kazuya~” I chuckle when he rub our noses together
The sound of the horn can be heard from the cab, I saw him turn to look at the cab before he turn back to face me again. “The driver waiting for me…”
I just nodded at him, not uttering any single word as the arm that wrapped around me slowly loosing it grips, feeling him starting to become distant from me and I unconsciously grab his hand, making him to look at me in concern
“Jin… I…” another tear fell from my eyes, “…kiss me”
I saw him was a bit surprised by my sudden request. But I don’t care, I just want him to kiss me right now… I want him to kiss me for the last time…
“…Are you sure? We’re in public…”
“I-I don’t care…” I grab his shirt, “Please… just kiss me…”
He smiles, placing his hands on each side of my shoulder, bringing my body closer to his. “With pleasure my love” with that, he place his lips against mine and I close my eyes, feeling all the warm and love that I could feel from the kiss
Every moment that we share and we cherish together, every single minute and every single second that we used to spend together will always be buried deep inside my heart, I would never forget those single time that we used to spend together
And now I believe, that no matter how far we are, our heart will always connected. My feelings for him will never change and I believe that feelings that someday will brought us together again, and then we will be together… forever
After for like an eternity, he finally broke the kiss as our we stare deeply into each other eyes. “I have to go Kazuya…”
We detached our body as I saw Tat-chan and Yamashita-kun walk to stand beside me. I saw Jin smiles at the three of us, smiling gently like he always used to do. “Hey, Ueda, Yamapi… promise me that you will take care of Kazuya for me?”
“Sure” I feel Tat-chan put his hand around my shoulder. “We promise we’ll take care of him”
I pout at Tat-chan and said, “I’m not a kid you know…”
“Maybe you’re not~ but you will always be our little turtle you know~” Tat-chan ruffle my hair. “Little turtle can’t do things alone all by himself right?”
“Don’t worry Jin. We’ll take care of your beloved little boyfriend here” I heard Yamashita said as he join in to ruffle my hair
I turn to faced my boyfriend when I heard him chuckling. “Thanks guys” Jin said as he smiles at all of us before he turned around and walked away and faced his back to my sight. Just watching his back like that… I feel so lonely…
But I will stay strong. I won’t cry. For him… for both of us… for our relationship…
And because I believe that someday he will come back for me
As I saw him enter the cab and when it started to turned on, my legs already moving by itself toward where the cab is. The cab’s window that reflect my reflection was strolled down, revealing Jin figures that sitting in the back seat
“What’s wrong Kazuya?”
“Do…” I stopped on my sentence as I turn to look straight at his eyes. “Do you remember what you said before when you said that you’ll always be with me?” I said to him and keep continue because I didn’t really expecting an answer from him. “I’ll always be with you to no matter how far we are!” I can feel my face heated up as I said those sentences but it doesn’t matter. Because I want him to know these
A gentle smile form on his lips and he placed one of his hand to my cheek, gently stroking it with his big and warm hand. “I love you…”
I smiles back at him, putting my hand on top of his that placed on my cheek. “I love you too Jin…”
“I’ll see you again…” he said and I nod at him
“Yes…” I smiles at him as he drew back his hand, “I’ll see you again…”
With his last smiles that shown to me, the window was strolled up again and soon after that, the cab started to drive away, slowly become much more smaller and it was far within my reach. But I just stood there, watching Jin go away from me with a smile on my face as a single tear found it way down to my cheek
We won’t say ‘goodbye’ because we both believe that we will see each other again
And until that time comes up, I will always wait for him no matter how long it is
I will wait for his return…
Always…
( epilogue here^^ )
Author: hime_no_koi
Pairing: Akame
Genre: Fluff, romance, yaoi, and quite angst for this chapter if you ask me >< (don’t kill me!)
Rating: Back to PG-14^^ haha
Summary: Kazuya and Jin had been going out since the day Jin confesses his feeling to Kazuya at their junior high school graduation. Kazuya had been in love with Jin secretly back then when they still at junior high. But now that they had been going out, Kazuya still feel nervous every time he with Jin… even sometimes think that he’s not worth being Jin’s boyfriend
Written in Kame POV’s
Author’s note: Hi, this is the first time I write fanfic and join LJ. English definitely not my skill but I’m learning it to improve my skill, I determine to improve it *eyes burn with fire*. Forgive me for any bad grammar and word
Part 9
My eyes fluttered open as the dim light from the sun came through the thin fabric of the curtain, the bird singing sounded in my ears and the first thing that I saw is Jin’s sleeping faces with his arms still wrapped around my body. It looks like Jin didn’t let me go since last night because as I remembered he was holding me exactly as the same position he is now
A smile, a sad one though, across my face as I roam my eyes on his sleeping faces. There’s a part of me that feeling so happy because this was actually the first time I was greeted with this kind of sight when I woke up, it felt so wonderful waking up in the arms of the person you love. Although I couldn’t help but get really embarrassed when I recall what had we done last night…
And another part of me felt so sad… So sad that because today is the day… the day where Jin’s going to somewhere far away where I couldn’t reach him, and now I really wished that morning had never come right now, that way maybe Jin wouldn’t leave me
Sighing, I snuggle closer to him, facing my face against his naked chest that felt so much warmed and closed my eyes, inhaling the scent came from his body
Why is it so hard to let him go? Why did I fell so much in love with him? Why do I felt like that he’s my whole world?
…That’s not good, thinking about those kind of thing will only make myself hard to let him go
If there’s only just some way to made him stay… or if there’s only just some way for me to go with him
Should I said to him that I’m pregnant?
……
…Yeah, right. Like it would really happened
Am I really asking that much just wanting him to stay right here beside me?
I open my eyes when I felt him stir in his sleep, slowly seeing him opening his eyes before I saw him smiling at me in a way that always success to made my heart beating fast
“Morning…” he smiles at me and I try my best to look cheerful before smiling back at him “Morning Jin…” I greeted him back
I sigh in content when I felt his hand caressing my cheek in the gentlest way. “…Um, are you… hurt?” I look at him questioningly hearing his question
“Well, you know…” I became even more curious when I thought I saw him blushed a bit. “Well… after last night…” as he said that realization hit me and I looked away with a blush adorning my face
“Um… W-W-Well… I-I… err… a bit…” I said embarrassedly. Well… my hips and my… well… you know… it is felt hurt so much. Gosh… I never knew it would be hurt ‘that’ much… but, not that I regret it though
“I’m really sorry…” a kiss landed on my forehead while his hand still caressing my cheek. “It must be hurt quite a lot…”
“I-It’s okay…” I reassured, smiling at him. I don’t want him to regret what we have done last night. I want him to cherish last night moment, just like the way I do
“Ah… it’s morning already, huh? Times really go by quickly…” he whines and my heart ached when I remember again that he had to leave today
“W-We should go shower… a-and have breakfast. My mom must be awake at this time…” I said, tried to sound cheerful and sat up when suddenly I felt a hand grabbed my arm, making me to look at him surprised
“…Don’t look like that…”
I stare at him confused at what he had said. Why did he say that?
“What do you mean?” I smile at him and saw him shook his head
“…You look like you’re about to cry” his answer make me really surprised and make me nervous
“N-No I’m not…” I forced a laugh, telling him that there’s nothing wrong with me but then the smile on my face faded away when I saw him sat up, staring at me right onto my eyes and make my heart beating so fast
“You are” he said, his hand working to brushed my bangs away. “You’re forcing yourself…” at his statement I looked away, knowing that he had said the truth
I know… I know that I’m just trying to fool myself, fooling myself that I’m going to be alright even if Jin is not here with me. But crying and complaining won’t do any good either, if I keep crying and sad, I will only make Jin even worried and I don’t want that, I don’t want to make him worry about me
“I’ll… I’ll be okay…” I smile at him. “Please… don’t worry about me” I said, placing a hand on top of his that holding my cheek. “Beside… crying won’t make things better…”
There’s a hint of sadness as I stare at his brown orbs and it makes me sad as well. “Kazuya… I’m sorry… I’m really sorry” he whispered those words as he pulled me into his embrace, feeling him hiding his face on my neck. “I really wished that I don’t have to go”
Please don’t, please don’t leave me. Please stay right here with me…
How I really wished that I could say that to him, but I couldn’t. It would be really selfish of me… He already kept saying that he was sorry about it when he shouldn’t… even though it was not his fault, he kept saying that he was sorry
And it makes me realize… that I want to do something for him. And that’s not make him worry and sad. I want him to be able to go without worrying about me, I want him to go with a smile adorning his face, even if it would brought tears to mine
“It’s okay Jin… It’s not your fault… It’s no one’s fault” I said and smile at him despite the fact that I was crying inside
“Kazuya…” he pull back a bit, still trapping me in his arms as one of his hand move to my cheek and I found myself feeling so much nervous when he lean closer to me, lips only a few inch away as I could feel his breath on my face
“I love you Kazuya…” with that word came out from his lips, he pull me into a sweet and loving kiss
My body froze when I heard the sound of the door knocked followed with my mother voice. “Kazuya? Jin-kun? Are you two awake” we pulled away from the kiss and starting to panic while looking around to get our shirt that laying on the floor
“Crap! This isn’t good at all…” I heard him muttering something like that but I didn’t really pay attention to that since I was too panic and hurriedly get off, but unfortunately ended up falling into the floor
“Whoa! Kazuya!” I heard him called out my name as he rushed to my side and helping me to stand up. “You okay?” he asked
“U-Un” I just nodded at him and quickly took my clothes to wear it. Ouch… my lower part… it hurt so much… must be the reason why I fell earlier…
“Kazuya? Jin-kun?” mom voice sounded again from the other side of the door and this time I walked to the door… well, limping to be exact
I unlock the door before opening the door, I was greeted with mom face. “Oh, you awake” she smiled
“W-what is it?” I asked, trying to acted as if there’s nothing happened
“Ah, morning there Jin-kun” my mom greeted Jin and I turn back to look at Jin who smile back at hear while saying, “Morning Kamenashi-san”
“Ah, you wore your shirt backward Jin-kun” I froze upon hearing that and stare at Jin while biting my lower lip nervously. I could see that he was really nervous from the look of his face and he smile goofily at my mom. “A…hahaha… how stupid I am” he laugh nervously and I starting to wish that my mother would finally go away
My wishes was granted as she said that breakfast already done and told us to get prepare before she walked away. Closing the door, I sigh in relief while leaning my back against the door
“Phew! That was close…” I heard Jin said and looked up to him before said. “I guess… we should take a shower”
He look at me with a playful smile on his face that makes me confuse. “We?” he asked and as realization hit me I blushed and quickly explained, “N-No! I-I-I mean… you and I… w-wait, I-I mean… yes… both of us… b-but went to shower alone… n-not together…” I starting to blabbering and slowly the sentence went die on my throat when I heard him laughing
“Oh you’re just too cute~” he said, still laughing and I pout at him, sulking. Man… why he always like teasing me? I get the feeling that he started to become like Tat-chan… but I had to say I love hearing him laugh like that. Every moment like this always felt so much fun that I start to forget about Jin’s leave that always makes me sad
If only this moment will last forever…
“Hey, you’re spacing out…” I snapped out of my mind hearing what he said and look at him. “S-sorry…” I apologize to him
“Well, can I took a shower first?” he asked and I nodded at him, walking to the wardrobe and look for a spare towel for him when suddenly I felt arms enveloped into a hug from behind, making me froze and my heart starting to beating out loud
“J-Jin…” I called him out, no matter how much relax and happy I am being hugged like this by him I couldn’t help but worried, knowing that the door was unlocked this time and there’s a possibility my mom would come here again
“…you know that I love you so much, right?” he whispered against my ears, tightening his arms around me and I could feel my heart beating even faster than before
“Jin…”
“I love you Kazuya… I love you so much… you mean everything to me… and it won’t change no matter what…” he place a kiss against my bare neck that send shiver through my body
Why did he say that? What is he trying to say to me?
If he continue talking something like that… making me felt like fly up to the high sky I would be to happy… and it would made me even harder to be separated from him…
“Well, I’ll be taking shower first then~” he said and I blush when he placed a kiss on my cheek before taking the towel from me and went to the bathroom, leaving me standing there alone
Sighing, I walk to the bed and sat on it, hanging my head low as another sigh came out from my lips. Jin will leave today… and that thought alone always made my heart ached
I guess it would even hurt when it comes the time Jin had to leave?
Sighing in frustration and rest my arms against my face
Am I… going to be really okay?
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After both of us finished taking a shower, we went downstairs to grab some breakfast that my mom made for us. During the whole breakfast, my mom keep asking Jin question regarding his leaving today, and that kind of conversation doesn’t make me any better at all, so I just stay silent during the whole breakfast, except if my mom or Jin asking me question of course
Finishing breakfast, both Jin and I went back to my room since he said that he want to prepare to get home since the plane that he and his family going to ride is going to take off at 01:00 PM o’clock, and it’s already 10 Am right now… three more hours… he’s going to leave me
I won’t be seeing him for such a really long time… or maybe… I wouldn’t be able to see him
“I should get prepare now…” I heard him say once we get inside my room. I stand near the door as I just keep watching him putting some of his clothes to his backpack, presenting his back to me
…Why am I felt so incredibly lonely just by watching his back right now? He was still standing there in front of me… he still standing in the same place as I am… so why I do feel like he’s so far away right now?
I didn’t know what’s gotten into me when the next thing I realize is I’m walking to where he is, bending to reach my arms and enveloped him into a tight hug from behind
I can feel that he was surprised by my action since he stop whatever it is he’s doing right now. But I don’t care at all… I want to stay close to him right now
“Kazuya? are you okay?” I heard him asked but didn’t answer and just burying my face into his shoulder, trying so hard to prevent the tears that wanted to escaped from eyes
“Kazuya…” this time he whispered my name so softly that I thought I was going to break hearing it, feeling how much love that he put even if he just calling my name like that, but I ignore him again, tightening my arms around him before I feel his hand on top of mine
“Kazuya… I have to leave now…” his words this time bringing me back to reality and slowly letting my arms go around him even though I really didn’t want to let go of him
I look down, not wanting him to look at my face because I know how miserable I look right now. But then his hand grabbing my chin, forcing me to look at him. And when I saw his face, I was really surprised
Because I saw tear trailing down from his eye to his beautiful face
“I love you so much Kazuya…” he whispered, trailing his thumb against my cheek to wipe away my tear away that I didn’t even realize already falling from my eye
Please… please don’t cry…
“I love you… so much…”
I know… I know that because he already telling me for a thousand time
“Ah! Crap! Why am I crying?” he laugh dryly, wiping away the tear that managed to escape from his eye earlier before staring back at me with his most bright smile, pulling me into his embrace then
“Will you… come to see me off later?”
To that question, I didn’t answer him. Because I seriously don’t know what to do, and I don’t think I would be able seeing he walked away from me
He pulls back and stared at me with his beautiful eyes, caressing my hair in such a loving touch. “It’s okay if you don’t want to” he said
“Kazuya… I didn’t know when I’ll be coming back so… so I won’t ask you to wait for me…”
…What? What is he saying? Why is he talked like that? Why does he talk as if he wanted to let me go?
“But… remember this…” he cupped my face with both of his hand, staring at me right into my eyes. “Don’t ever forget… that I wouldn’t stop loving you…”
My heart hammering inside me as that sentence escape from his lips, leaving me speechless with his declaration
Why? How could he be so sure of that?
Why did he love me that much?
I snapped out of my mind when he placed his lips on mine, feeling his arms wrapped around my waist to pulled me closer to him. At that moment… I could feel how desperate he is when he kiss me, he kiss me as if it would be the last time he’s going to do it…
So I close my eyes, enjoying our last kiss… feeling his feeling that he poured to that kiss
I love you Jin… I love you so much…
He broke the kiss and the moment I open my eyes, I was met with his loving gaze that stare back at mine. How I wanted to keep him here now, keeping him here with him
But I couldn’t… because I didn’t have the right to do that
“I’ll be leaving now…” I saw him turn around to grab his bag before facing me again with a smile spread on his face despite the fact how lonely he is from the look on his eyes
“Goodbye… Kazuya”
With that, he walked passed me and went out of the room, leaving me there standing motionlessly until I finally break and fall into the floor with my knees
“Jin…” tears streaming out from my eyes as I called out his name with a broken voice even though I know it was useless, because it wouldn’t make him stop leaving
“Jin…” another tears keep falling from my eyes I cry harder, calling his name for a countless time as if it would bring him here
I was already crying for more than two hours in my bed and this time the tears finally came dry. My mom found me lying down on the floor while crying and bringing me to the bed earlier, she keep asking the reason I cried but I didn’t pay any attention to her since the only thing I do is crying, but then I guess she knew why I cried when I called Jin’s name
I take a look at the clock that showing it was already half past twelve, feeling my heart even numb and how weak my body felt
In the end, I didn’t have the courage to see Jin off…
I’m such a coward…
I… I wanted to see him, I really wanted too but… I’m really scared to face the truth that he’s going to leave me
I… I’m so horrible…
My heart almost jumped out from my chest when suddenly the door of my room fly open, making me to sat up and turn to look who the intruder
My eyes widen in shock upon seeing Tat-chan and a boy with blonde hair standing next to him with my mom standing behind them. Who’s that person Tat-chan came with? And… what are they doing here?
“What the heck are you doing here you idiot?!” I was really scared when I saw the blonde hair boy rush toward me while glaring at me
“E-Eh?” not knowing what else to say that’s only the word came out from my lips
“Don’t “eh” me as if you don’t know what I’m trying to say here!” he yell at me and I’m getting really scared here. Just who is he anyway? He just suddenly barging into my room and then yelling at me without me knowing the reason
“Yamashita-kun, yelling at him won’t do any good” I turn to look at Tat-chan who stand next to my mom who have this questioning face as I do before Tat-chan walked over to this Yamashita boy
…wait a minute
Yamashita?
Jin’s best friend?
“You know who I am right?” the blonde hair boy asked me, “I’m Yamashita Tomohisa. Your boyfriend’s best friend”
My eyes widen in shock when I heard his declaration and I nervously turn to look at my mom who looked so shock upon hearing what he said
“Kazuya” I turn back to the boy who standing in front of me when I heard Tat-chan call my name. “Both me and Yamashita came here to take you to see Jin off when he heard from him that you’re not coming” he said and for the first time in my life, I saw Tat-chan glaring at me
Wait a minute… Does that mean… Jin was waiting for me?
But I ignore what he said and looked down, not wanting to met with their look and hoping that they would finally leave me alone. “I… I can’t…”
“What?!” I heard Yamashita yelled again and this time I look up to stare at them as tear trailing down from my eyes that seems make both Tat-chan and Yamashita look at me surprised
“I couldn’t…” between sob I tried my best to talk. “I couldn’t… I’m scared! I’m scared that I won’t be able to let him go if I saw him walked away! Don’t you understand?!” I yell as tears keep trailing down to my cheek
“Then do you understand how Jin really feel right now?!” Yamashita word makes me speechless as I just stare back at him
“He wanted to see you dammit! The only thing he want right now is to see you came to see him off!” I heard him yell at me again as the room filled with silence before he continued, “Can’t you see… Can’t you see how miserable he must feel right now?”
“Can’t you see that you’re the only person that he wanted to see the most right now?!” The room filled with silence again as he finally stops talking
Jin… wants to see me?
I never thought about that… I never thought he does really want to see me…
…why am I such an idiot? He must be felt so sad right now, just like the way I do. He must be feeling lonely… just like the way I do right now…
And yet I was selfish again… I only thought about myself…
Maybe another reason why I don’t want to see Jin go is… because I don’t want to get hurt…
But I was wrong…
By doing that… I would make Jin get hurt and it would hurt me even more. Because I don’t want to hurt him…
“I… I’m really an idiot…” I shook my head and look down, feeling so ashamed that I’m only thinking about myself
“You are” I look up upon hearing that coming from Tat-chan, but to my surprise I saw him smiling at me. “That’s why we decide to came to you, because we know that you won’t see him. And as both yours and Jin’s best friend, we don’t want to see you two apart this way”
A small smile appear on my face hearing what he said, “Best friend come to the rescue, huh?”
“Well, you could say that” Tat-chan smile at me and I saw him offering his hand to me which I took gladly and he help me to stand
“So, you’re going to see Jin right?” Yamashita asked me and I smile at him before nodding. “Yes…”
“We’ll come with you” I heard Tat-chan said and smile at me, “Because who know what’s gonna happen to you if we didn’t take care of you”
I smile at Tat-chan and said, “Thank you very much…”
“Come on! What are waiting for” Yamashita exclaim and I nod to him before we rush out of the room but stopped when my mom suddenly yell at us, “Wait!”
Crap… I forgot about mom…
“Kazuya! What is this all about?!” I heard her asked, making me turn to look at her who looks really ready to explode. “You’re going out with Jin-kun?!”
“Mother…” I called her out gently, trying to make her calm down
“Why you did never told me about this?!”
“I-I’m really sorry because I didn’t tell you about it…” I said before continue, “But… I promise I’ll explain later… right now, there’s something else that I have to do” I look at her pleading, hoping that she understands
None of us talked and I’m starting to get really worried because we’re really going to waste time, but thankfully her word make me broke into a smile, “Fine…”
“Thank you mom” I smile at her before dashing out of the house followed by Tat-chan and Yamashita
Please… please don’t go yet Jin
The three of us trying as fast as we could to run toward Jin’s house since we knows his house quite far from mine. And what come worse… I’m really bad at running
“Hey! Come on! Run faster you turtle!” I heard Yamashita yell as he looks behind to me over his shoulder
“I… am!” I said between pant. Can’t he see that I’m already tried running as fast as I could?! I’m not good at sport!
“Ah! Geez! You’re really are a turtle!” I heard Tat-chan groan and the next thing I knew my wrist was grabbed by him, pulling me to run faster
“Come on! We must hurry!” Yamashita said and before I knew it, he grabbed my other wrist and pulled me to run even faster along with Tat-chan. My feet feel numb and I feel like I’m going to die for running out of breath for running too much
“W-wait… N-not so fast!” I said to both of them while panting
“Don’t you want to see Jin?!” hearing what Yamashita had said I fell silent and just letting them pulled me to the direction of Jin’s house
After a while, both of them stop running and I bent down, trying to catch my breath and wondering what make them stop running until I realized that we maybe had arrived on Jin’s house
“There he is!” I look up hearing what Yamashita said and saw Jin getting out of a house and was about to enter a cab, and before he could do it, Yamashita called him out. “JIN! WAIT”
I saw him turn with his eyes widen as he quickly walked toward where we are. “Y-You guys… what are you-”
“What are you talking about? Of course we came here to see you off” I turn to look at Yamashita who had a smile on his face
“Are you already going to go?” I heard Ueda asked Jin
“Yeah… my parents already went to the airport first with the other cab since the thing that we’re going to brought is way too much that we have to use two cab” he giggle, making me feels relieved somehow when I heard him laughing
“Kazuya…”
Hearing Jin called my name, I slowly turn to look at him face to face a bit unsurely, but all of my doubt was wiped off when I saw a smile form on Jin’s lips. “You came…”
I smile back at him, “I… I forgot to tell you something…” I said to him, earning a questioning look from him. Slowly but surely, I took a step closer until stood right in front of him
“Jin… I love you” reaching out my hand to grab his, I poured all of my love while whispering those word and earn a loving smile from him before pulling me into his embrace
“I love you too Kazuya…” he whisper against my ear so gently and lovingly that it brought tears form in my eyes, hiding my face on his chest and hug him tightly, not wanting to let him go
“Jin… I…” I tried to speak between my sobs, wanting to tell him how much I love him and how he mean so much to me. “I… I’ll be waiting for you…”, as I said those word, he pull me back, staring straight into my eyes as his face written with surprise
“I’ll be waiting for you Jin…” I smile at him, holding his hand again but more tightly this time. “No matter how long it is… I-I’ll be waiting for your return…”
I was surprised when I saw his eyes filled with tears, wondering if I had said something wrong to him but then when he pull me back into his embrace again, a smile formed on my lips as tears also filled on my eyes
“I promise. I’ll come back for you” as that words came out from his lips, I smile wider and hug him back tightly, leaning into his warm
“I know you will…” I hide my face into his chest when a single tear fall from eye as I can feel Jin buried his face into my neck, arms wrapped around each other tightly as we not want to let go of each other
“I’ll call you every day, and I’ll send you a letter from times to times. We can also exchange e-mail as well and chat”
I chuckle at his statement, sighing against his chest. Oh how much I love this person. “I… I’ll have part time job and save the money and then used it to visit you…”
He lean back and asked me, “For real?”
I smile at him, “…I…I’ll do anything just to see you…”
A smile cross on his face and I saw him leaning closer to my face, a bit surprised yet didn’t bothered by it when he planted a kiss on my forehead
“Thank you for your sincere love Kazuya… But I don’t want you to do that…” I was a bit surprised when I hear the answer that I didn’t expect to hear coming from him
“B-But…” I stuttered, looking away from him as I hang my head low, “…Y-you don’t… want to see me?”
I felt hands cupping my face, forcing me to look at Jin in the eyes. “Come on, you know that you’re the one that I would want to see the most when I’m there”
I keep silent, hearing what he was about to say. “I just don’t want you to get sick Kazuya… I want you to be healthy and not tiring yourself…”
“But…” I tried to talk, but then was cut off when a finger place on my lips
“Like I said, I’ll contact you really often. At least that way I think we’ll feel much better…” He smiles at me, caressing my cheek with his hand. “Although I’m sure that I would be dying to see you every day”
“And beside…” I saw him moving closer to me, so close that I could feel his breath against my face and feel his arms wrapped around my waist. “You’ll wait for me right?” he smiles
“So, will you just be patient and wait for me Kazuya?”
I stare at him for a while before smile back at him as I answered, “I will… I trust you that you’ll be back”
“That’s my Kazuya~” I chuckle when he rub our noses together
The sound of the horn can be heard from the cab, I saw him turn to look at the cab before he turn back to face me again. “The driver waiting for me…”
I just nodded at him, not uttering any single word as the arm that wrapped around me slowly loosing it grips, feeling him starting to become distant from me and I unconsciously grab his hand, making him to look at me in concern
“Jin… I…” another tear fell from my eyes, “…kiss me”
I saw him was a bit surprised by my sudden request. But I don’t care, I just want him to kiss me right now… I want him to kiss me for the last time…
“…Are you sure? We’re in public…”
“I-I don’t care…” I grab his shirt, “Please… just kiss me…”
He smiles, placing his hands on each side of my shoulder, bringing my body closer to his. “With pleasure my love” with that, he place his lips against mine and I close my eyes, feeling all the warm and love that I could feel from the kiss
Every moment that we share and we cherish together, every single minute and every single second that we used to spend together will always be buried deep inside my heart, I would never forget those single time that we used to spend together
And now I believe, that no matter how far we are, our heart will always connected. My feelings for him will never change and I believe that feelings that someday will brought us together again, and then we will be together… forever
After for like an eternity, he finally broke the kiss as our we stare deeply into each other eyes. “I have to go Kazuya…”
We detached our body as I saw Tat-chan and Yamashita-kun walk to stand beside me. I saw Jin smiles at the three of us, smiling gently like he always used to do. “Hey, Ueda, Yamapi… promise me that you will take care of Kazuya for me?”
“Sure” I feel Tat-chan put his hand around my shoulder. “We promise we’ll take care of him”
I pout at Tat-chan and said, “I’m not a kid you know…”
“Maybe you’re not~ but you will always be our little turtle you know~” Tat-chan ruffle my hair. “Little turtle can’t do things alone all by himself right?”
“Don’t worry Jin. We’ll take care of your beloved little boyfriend here” I heard Yamashita said as he join in to ruffle my hair
I turn to faced my boyfriend when I heard him chuckling. “Thanks guys” Jin said as he smiles at all of us before he turned around and walked away and faced his back to my sight. Just watching his back like that… I feel so lonely…
But I will stay strong. I won’t cry. For him… for both of us… for our relationship…
And because I believe that someday he will come back for me
As I saw him enter the cab and when it started to turned on, my legs already moving by itself toward where the cab is. The cab’s window that reflect my reflection was strolled down, revealing Jin figures that sitting in the back seat
“What’s wrong Kazuya?”
“Do…” I stopped on my sentence as I turn to look straight at his eyes. “Do you remember what you said before when you said that you’ll always be with me?” I said to him and keep continue because I didn’t really expecting an answer from him. “I’ll always be with you to no matter how far we are!” I can feel my face heated up as I said those sentences but it doesn’t matter. Because I want him to know these
A gentle smile form on his lips and he placed one of his hand to my cheek, gently stroking it with his big and warm hand. “I love you…”
I smiles back at him, putting my hand on top of his that placed on my cheek. “I love you too Jin…”
“I’ll see you again…” he said and I nod at him
“Yes…” I smiles at him as he drew back his hand, “I’ll see you again…”
With his last smiles that shown to me, the window was strolled up again and soon after that, the cab started to drive away, slowly become much more smaller and it was far within my reach. But I just stood there, watching Jin go away from me with a smile on my face as a single tear found it way down to my cheek
We won’t say ‘goodbye’ because we both believe that we will see each other again
And until that time comes up, I will always wait for him no matter how long it is
I will wait for his return…
Always…
( epilogue here^^ )