Holke
Dear Park Kyung,
The first time I ever saw you, I literally said out loud to myself, “He’s the member I guess I’ll just have to put up with.” When I first saw Block B, I had plans-I had plans to make U-kwon my bias, to learn everyone else’s names later, to see how funny you guys would be, and to learn to deal with you because for some reason, I felt like you’d be an annoying member who would keep me from making Block B one of my top bias bands.
Looking back, maybe the reason I didn’t want to like you was because fate was trying to tell me that I’d fall completely in love with you just half a year later.
The more I saw you, the more I saw of Block B, it was like checkpoint after checkpoint of being proven wrong.
Yes, we are this dumb.
Yes, we are this crazy.
Yes, we are insane.
Yes, we are this talented.
Yes, we produce our own music-we think for ourselves, we don’t always go by the rules-yes, we like to rebel.
Yes, we are this kind.
Yes, we work this hard.
Yes, we are this gorgeous both inside and out.
Yes, we love music-our fans-each other-this much.
By the time Match Up was half over, I knew all your names not by learning them, but because you all kept screaming at each other every episode. My bias turned out to be Zico because he was the one who barreled me through every single checkpoint, proving me wrong the fastest and hardest. And by that point, you’d proven me wrong so many times-you’d singlehandledly made me fall in love with you after I thought that there was no way I’d be anything but tolerant of you.
You became that one member who I always have to shake off because of how you kept pushing Zico out of his place as my bias. There’s a reason why BBCs say that B-Bomb is the bias list ruiner from the outside, but real BBCs know it’s actually you.
You, with your smile that lights up the entire building, the entire 10-mile radius of wherever you are-the smile that I actually cried over because I thought we’d never see it again after the scandal. You boys are always smiling, have always been the kind of people who wear huge, bright grins wherever you go-but you’re the one who always smiles widest, happiest. And when even your smile disappeared, it felt like a chasm had opened up underneath BBCs.
You’re the one who constantly said again and again in Match Up about how you’re unattractive, making jokes out of it, making us feel like we should joke about it too-who made it seem like you’re just a jokester all the way up until that episode when we saw you cry. The day we saw how gorgeous you are on the inside, for those of us-like me-who hadn’t realized it already. And then from there on, you kept showing us how beautiful you are on the outside too-and made us feel stupid for believing you and you cucumber jokes you bastardf jska;fa
Zico’s style and flow might be flashier than yours, and I hate how that sometimes overshadows your own style and flow because despite everyone-and myself at first-naming him as the most talented, you are undoubtedly just as talented. You have a subtler style and flow that lashes out in your diss raps, but then lends itself to love songs-sad or sweet or happy-better than Zico’s does.
And I know I repeat myself over and over again on this, but even though I believe that all my biases have hearts of gold-I believe all the groups I stan have hearts of gold-there’s just something about you where, whenever I see you smile, whenever you do anything really, I just feel like you have this absolutely humongous heart. We joke about it, we call you greasy, but we hardly need all of the hundreds of reminders you always give us telling us how great we are to you guys, telling us how you’re nothing without us, because it should be us constantly reminding you of that. In terms of talking to fans, fanservice, you’re always #1 and the thing about your fanservice, is that your humongous heart is so painfully obvious whenever you grin at us.
Now, it’s gotten to a point where I’ve run out of words to really express how I feel about you, and how you literally have one of the most dynamic, kind, hilarious, strong personalities in order to singlehandedly win around so many BBCs, so many people in general, who all had their eyes on other members in the beginning. Zico’s always said to be the light of Block B, the one who pulls everything forward-but behind the scenes, to the eyes of BBCs, we all know you’re the driving force that pushes everything from behind. And maybe that’s another reason I fell in love with you-it’s hard not to love the person who your bias has loved for ten years-your bias’s closest friend, your bias’s performing partner, producing partner, childhood friend.
Since I think I should stop this before it gets to a thousand words, I’ll end it with wishing you an amazing birthday. You tweeted just a few days ago how you think you don’t deserve all the birthday presents arriving for you at the Stardom building, but really, you deserve so much more than we could ever give you. Those few weeks during the scandal when your smile-Park Kyung’s gianormous, sincere, amazing, blinding smile-was nowhere to be found, were honestly the scariest three weeks BBCs ever had to go through. We want to see you smiling tons more in the future, and we’ll do our best to give you reasons to smile bigger and brighter.
Happy birthday, Park Kyung-never stop smiling, never stop laughing, never stop trolling, never stop dreaming, never stop being the amazing, talented, hilarious, kind, sweet, gentle musician, artist, rapper-human being-that you are.
