Hot Damn...
I haven't written in this thing in forever... but I have been inspired. Thank you Kelly.
I have had an interesting morning.... something happened that could change my life (oh my goodness NO WAY!)... I mean, the chances of it happening are really slim, but it got me thinking:
"What if it did happen? How would I honestly react? What would I do?"
I have a problem when it comes to things that alter MY LITTLE BUBBLE of a WORLD. It scares me to think about things that could change my life in bad ways... that's why I try not to think about them. When someone tells me something along those lines, I sort of self destruct in a quiet way. I try to not let it effect me, but secretly, it does. Part of that might just be that I am a woman.
The sad thing is, that in this situation, I have no control over what decision is made. I can express my opinion, but I can't do a damn thing about it if the answer happens to be YES... all I can do, is "be supportive" and hope that everything works out, because everything happens for a reason...
right?
I don't like not being in control. I don't like not having a plan. I don't like lying about how I'm feeling... because I can't help how I'm feeling and (sometimes I WISH I could lie about them to make others happy). Well, I haven't lied about them... yet....
but here's the point ~ I can't control everything, because as much as I would like to...
the world is an imperfect place.
things will not always go according to plan...
I cannot always get my way...
and I will not always like what I'm feeling...
So, whatever decision you make,
and no matter where that decision takes US,
I will support you and be praying for you every step of the way...
that's all... and I'll talk to you later hopefully.