Dreeeeeams, dreams dreams dreeams.
Things are making me have deja vu and I remembered I wanted to post about my dream last night. It bothered me slightly. I dreamt that I got engaged - but to some guy that I wasn't that into. And the reason I got engaged was because everyone around me was getting engaged. And in the dream, I had to break off the engagement and it turned out to be the second time I did that. (Also my ring was kind of ugly!) The reason this dream bothers me is because it's so damn obvious! I am angry that my psyche is concerned about this! Am I really that concerned that people around me are all in couples (and getting married) and I am not???? I know it's sometimes frustrating, but am I also concerned that I might just rush into engagement because I am scared of being alone? Because I always felt stronger than that, but my dream is saying I'm not. EXCEPT! Hmmm....in the dream I recognized that accepting this dude's proposal wasn't right for me. OH! Deja vu again. This isn't the first time I've called off a wedding in a dream. Huh.
Dr. Freud? If your analysis is that I wish I had a penis, I'm gonna say no to that one. If it's that all I really want is sex - I might not disagree with you so hard.
Anyway, I do know that during my walk home last night when I was stressing about money, I was also lamenting the fact that I wanted to go have a drink or dinner outside at one of the MANY bars/restaurants I pass on my way home, but I had no one to do that with. And I debated with myself whether I wanted a friend or a boyfriend. Okay, here's the thing. I want a friend like EG in law school or some other friends in undergrad - where it was like a pretend relationship - like an "activity buddy." I guess that means a single friend who lives with/near you who you can call up and say, "hey, you wanna meet for a drink?" Or go to a movie, or something. But in the absence of that, a boyfriend - because then you'd be the person they'd do that with anyway. Or something. I don't know if I make sense. But I guess a boyfriend combines the two things - an activity buddy and a fuck buddy (pardon my crass language). So I think I was also stressing over that a bit on my way home and that may have led to the disturbing dreams.
Okay, two posts in one day! Everyone feel special!
Dr. Freud? If your analysis is that I wish I had a penis, I'm gonna say no to that one. If it's that all I really want is sex - I might not disagree with you so hard.
Anyway, I do know that during my walk home last night when I was stressing about money, I was also lamenting the fact that I wanted to go have a drink or dinner outside at one of the MANY bars/restaurants I pass on my way home, but I had no one to do that with. And I debated with myself whether I wanted a friend or a boyfriend. Okay, here's the thing. I want a friend like EG in law school or some other friends in undergrad - where it was like a pretend relationship - like an "activity buddy." I guess that means a single friend who lives with/near you who you can call up and say, "hey, you wanna meet for a drink?" Or go to a movie, or something. But in the absence of that, a boyfriend - because then you'd be the person they'd do that with anyway. Or something. I don't know if I make sense. But I guess a boyfriend combines the two things - an activity buddy and a fuck buddy (pardon my crass language). So I think I was also stressing over that a bit on my way home and that may have led to the disturbing dreams.
Okay, two posts in one day! Everyone feel special!