I'm warning you, this isn't very pretty.
I can't sleep. This is the first time all summer where I just can't sleep. Usually after working with children all day, my head hits the pillow and thats it, I'm gone until 7:00 am, when I wake up and feel incredibly refreshed and ready for the day. But right now, I can't sleep. I can't even seem to relax. Every muscle in my body is tensed up. My back is so sore. I think I pinched a nerve or something. I've been gritting my teeth all day, and now I have this headache. And a permanent knot in my throat.
Whats wrong? I don't even know. Stress I s'pose. Just good ol' stress. Hard work. That I can't leave at work. Bleh.
How I wish I were back at school. Back to my routine. Back to living by myself. Back to not watching children all day.
I feel stuck. Stuck in my job. Counting the hours, the days, the weeks, til its over. Stuck at my house. Stuck by myself because no one is over here, and no one wants to come over here. I feel out of touch with my school world. With my friends.
I had to postpone my bike. But hopefully I can get it this weekend. It was just too expensive for me to buy last week. I know I shouldn't be spending this kind of money on such a thing as this bike. But I feel so frustrated, so impotent, that I HAVE to start releasing my stress or I will explode. And it won't be pretty.
That is all. I am typing loudly and I don't know how to type softly.
Whats wrong? I don't even know. Stress I s'pose. Just good ol' stress. Hard work. That I can't leave at work. Bleh.
How I wish I were back at school. Back to my routine. Back to living by myself. Back to not watching children all day.
I feel stuck. Stuck in my job. Counting the hours, the days, the weeks, til its over. Stuck at my house. Stuck by myself because no one is over here, and no one wants to come over here. I feel out of touch with my school world. With my friends.
I had to postpone my bike. But hopefully I can get it this weekend. It was just too expensive for me to buy last week. I know I shouldn't be spending this kind of money on such a thing as this bike. But I feel so frustrated, so impotent, that I HAVE to start releasing my stress or I will explode. And it won't be pretty.
That is all. I am typing loudly and I don't know how to type softly.