Fastidious Horses.
What was I going to get done today? I've yet to get my oil changed, but there's always another day, and today I need to write here, right now, or I just may burst. I wanted to call one of you last night, all of you, but it was too late. I didn't want to wake anyone up, it wasn't worth it, because I couldn't put it into words, or was afraid to put it into words.
I watched White Nights Thursday night. I got it from the library. And even though the DVD was scratched so that I couldn't see the end of the first dance, Barishnikov still changed my life, as he always has when I see him dance. So I was crying when you called, or had been, and then you assured me that everyone in their twenties goes through this. Somehow that doesn't lessen the frustration or anxiety. But after we hung up, I finished that movie, and I danced silently in my bedroom until 3 am. And it made things a little better. And I'm going dancing tonight, which might also make things a little better.
We really are like a family here. It's hard to imagine I suppose, I don't understand it completely myself. After strike last night we had a company meeting in the theatre. Everyone gets a shot of Jameson's and a moment to say a few words. If you don't want your shot you just pass it to someone who you think deserves it. I was given three in all, but only drank one. It was lovely. The night before we celebrated Jeff's birthday at Jessica's and that was lovely as well. We all go out together a lot and I can see how one would want to stay on for a year, or two, turning into ten.
Still, I'm lonely.
There's a song in White Nights that I need to own desperately. It's by Vladimir Vysotsky. Fastidious Horses or Koni Priveredlivye. I cannot find it anywhere. If someone finds it for me, I'll mail them a batch of cookies.
-k
ps. found it on myspace, but cannot download it. :(
I watched White Nights Thursday night. I got it from the library. And even though the DVD was scratched so that I couldn't see the end of the first dance, Barishnikov still changed my life, as he always has when I see him dance. So I was crying when you called, or had been, and then you assured me that everyone in their twenties goes through this. Somehow that doesn't lessen the frustration or anxiety. But after we hung up, I finished that movie, and I danced silently in my bedroom until 3 am. And it made things a little better. And I'm going dancing tonight, which might also make things a little better.
We really are like a family here. It's hard to imagine I suppose, I don't understand it completely myself. After strike last night we had a company meeting in the theatre. Everyone gets a shot of Jameson's and a moment to say a few words. If you don't want your shot you just pass it to someone who you think deserves it. I was given three in all, but only drank one. It was lovely. The night before we celebrated Jeff's birthday at Jessica's and that was lovely as well. We all go out together a lot and I can see how one would want to stay on for a year, or two, turning into ten.
Still, I'm lonely.
There's a song in White Nights that I need to own desperately. It's by Vladimir Vysotsky. Fastidious Horses or Koni Priveredlivye. I cannot find it anywhere. If someone finds it for me, I'll mail them a batch of cookies.
-k
ps. found it on myspace, but cannot download it. :(