When I am asleep
When I am asleep, I don't have lung cancer. I am myself, and everything makes sense again. I am as I was, less than a year ago.
Sometimes I am in uncomfortable or scary situations, but I am always myself. whole.
The world is a good place again, my home again, with financial uncertainties distant, like the stars. Sometimes I'm without anything, have to scrabble for something I need, and sometimes I'm hungry, and sometimes I am searching for one or more of my children, or an old friend.
It makes me happy to see them.
Sometimes my dad makes an appearance. As if he were still here and around, and I could talk to him..
Mostly I go skiing, or work on some project, or go exploring some long-forgotten green place, now remembered and welcoming.
But when I'm asleep, I don't have lung cancer. I am whole and healthy and able and myself.
Then I open my eyes.
Sometimes I am in uncomfortable or scary situations, but I am always myself. whole.
The world is a good place again, my home again, with financial uncertainties distant, like the stars. Sometimes I'm without anything, have to scrabble for something I need, and sometimes I'm hungry, and sometimes I am searching for one or more of my children, or an old friend.
It makes me happy to see them.
Sometimes my dad makes an appearance. As if he were still here and around, and I could talk to him..
Mostly I go skiing, or work on some project, or go exploring some long-forgotten green place, now remembered and welcoming.
But when I'm asleep, I don't have lung cancer. I am whole and healthy and able and myself.
Then I open my eyes.