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EVERYTHING is going so wrong.
don't you get (but really hate) those days when you're so stressed and ridiculously tired that all you want to do is cry but then you get mad at yourself and ask, "why the fuck are you gonna cry?" but then you just feel like a good cry will do the trick?
- first of all, i failed all my midterms. yup. ALL 4. I went from straight A's to a fuckin failing college student. I don't even want to go into depth about how I'm so disappointed in myself... i need to get my act together guys. honestly.
- none of my money from my paycheck I deposited isn't available yet meaning I can't buy my ipod until I don't know when.
- I've been really sick for already 2 weeks (and counting)
- and I feel like I dont have a roommate anymore.
sometimes I wish I just don't feel anything anymore.
at work, this is how I feel sometimes.
i'm just going through the actions now.
how boring. I need to do something that makes me happy.
so, im failing school, lonely, sick, and broke... what else can go wrong, right?
............
just keep swimming
just keep swimming
just keep swimming