quiet time
Rob and Mikey and Zach are off to see the Bruins - really to see Ovechkin from the washington capitals. Rob really wanted me to go, but the reality is it's across from my eye doctors in boston and it's just too painful. I'd tense up even going near there. I'm just in a happy place right now - it doesn't always last, but we have to make the best of it. Finances still bite - but it's on the news and in the government, we're not alone. I have the hardest working husband ever! He never gives up - he works and works. Guys have so many excuses - they laid me off, I'm hurt, it doesn't pay enough. That laziness makes men like mine have to pay for these loosers and their families. We have a man at work, steve he's easily late 50's - bottom fell out of his job, he's at my job cutting the ice and still looking. when he find what he wants that in his line of work, he'll still keep this job as an additional one so that he can catch up - why, he has a family and that's what families are supposed to do. What's with this whole government tax thing, I have a sis-in-law and a co-worker getting back tons more $$ than they paid in, and that's fair why???
Amber is sick, very very sick. She has an illness related to fluid build up in her brain that's effecting her vision, her optic nerve. She has no insurance, she's 20 - paying $10 a week to all these doctors. They were over the other day, John mom died about 4 years ago of a brain tumor, amber is his girlfriend. His dad died of cancer and before that was an alcoholic. Why should John have to keep living through the pain? Rob stepped up after having dealt with me and my vision loss, helped the two of them get a plan. The plan was this - get a second opinion. Look into financial assistance as she's not pregnant or disabled the state told her she can't get insurance, but if she were pregnant adding to the failing system, she could - go figure! I contact dartmouth, boston you name it - I have two doctors that want to see her records and schedule an appointment and put her in touch with the hospital financial services. But her mommy doesn't want to drive to hanover so she said no! He damn mom hasn't been there fully - she had amber at 15 - thankfully I think abortion unless a rape or endangerment is the cowards way out - that's a life. So thank you mom for having Amber. But it doesn't stop there. She needs help she could go blind! So I saw her and told her to get her records, we'll fax them from our house to the doctors and Rob and/or I will bring her and JOhn to the doctors. She said "you'd do that" I said of course we told you that. How can a mom just say "no" it's too far away, jesus their are people who can't have kids who'd do a much better job. I just hope we can help her get the care she needs and that there is a program somewhere that will help her. She works, she and John pay all their own bills, this is so unfair.
and speaking of unfair Timmy is still in a comma - though he's responding slightly to touch and sound, he's still locked inside. My fear was always going blind - eyes are so fragile. And a friend when I was in banking died of an aneurysm. Both Rob and I can't stop thinking about timmy, one minute plowing the other a hemorage and now comma - what did this caring volunteer firefighter do to deserve it? He's his daughters best friend. We had Rya now 13 the other day - her and zach have always been close and it was the same - he calls her his sister. We hung for three days I went in late to work, we luv her so much.
I'm killing time hoping Rob has no traffic agrivation getting to boston. He's so tired but this is what he does he knows the importance of memories with the boys. tomorrow he's home doing proposals - should be "us" time but am thinking mother natures going to give us a snow day... oh well. The boys blush when mommy and daddy shut the upstairs door, after all they are 15 and 17 and not stupid. Robby's been sleeping nekked this week, I've always wanted him to, but he wouldn't. An issue arose and he started for me, now it's carried on - he just looks so cute laying there in his inocence.
The house is a mess, I need to clean - but mike's heading to winter carnival in quebec with the french class thursday so I'm trying to get him all set. Bought banquet chicken (rob hates it) for tonight and will pluck away. Stressing over bills and taxes and hoping the economy shifts. But being around so much severe illness lets me know a house is only a house. The thing is Rob's worked so hard it's like starting over again with the phone ringing off the wall. But if I didn't have him and we didn't have each other - it would be so much harder.
just called mike, they're still not there - but should be - doors just opened, games at 7:00 have a blast guys. Matt's helping out at the park/rec rink tonight so me the dog and three cats
I love you!
