Shocked and thrilled

[hildolovesyou]

Holy Shit....I mean it. Right now in this moment in time, I am completely content and I am not worried about anything in the world. This is due to the fact that Steve and I work together. Unbeknownst to me, he was fallin for me as I was fallin for him. He and I hung out last night, I figured that it was just cool...but then he held my hand...he grabbed it and held it and he made me feel good. At first I was scared and I was shaking...and he asked me if I was alright because I was shaking, and I didn't tell him that this whole idea just freaks me out because he makes me feel different. I will have to tell him eventually how much the idea of someone liking me back scares me. I don't know why it scares me, but it does. I get nervous, like, what if I mess up in this one moment and then I ruin everything forever. But I don't think I messed up last night at all. Nope, I think that we are just fine for right now. I have a crush on him and it may hurt me later on, but right now, it feels so damn good.

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