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the past four days have been endless days of graduation parties...i can't even remember which is which because they all just jam together as one.
the past week has been one of extreme highs and extreme lows. at some points i am smiling and laughing hysterically at something ridculous scott or wilburn is doing and the next moment i am sittin on the ground with my legs pulled up and i'm crying hysterically. that can't be healthy. with the advice of a friend i was told to get on anti-depressants or something that helps bi-polar people because the chemicals in my body are out of whack.
right now, in fact, i feel like i could just cry and cry, but i don't want to and i want to be happy and excited.
i love my dad and he is going back to FL on tuesday...what the hell. he just got here and now he is being ripped away from me again, this is not pleasant.
i love sasha so very much and i never dreamed leaving would hurt me so much.
i feel like my heart is being ripped apart, ya know what i mean.
i need to listen to some really awesome music to make me happy or on the other hand, a really hot boy needs to come and find me, and then we can do as we want.
i hate couples...they are springing up everywhere around me...and the ones that were there before are in full bloom and nothing can kill them. they are all so happy i get sick and i vomit, no joke, that is my jealousy coming out. what the hell do they have that i don't have. whatever...i'm sick of being a pouty person.
fuck it.
hillary
the past week has been one of extreme highs and extreme lows. at some points i am smiling and laughing hysterically at something ridculous scott or wilburn is doing and the next moment i am sittin on the ground with my legs pulled up and i'm crying hysterically. that can't be healthy. with the advice of a friend i was told to get on anti-depressants or something that helps bi-polar people because the chemicals in my body are out of whack.
right now, in fact, i feel like i could just cry and cry, but i don't want to and i want to be happy and excited.
i love my dad and he is going back to FL on tuesday...what the hell. he just got here and now he is being ripped away from me again, this is not pleasant.
i love sasha so very much and i never dreamed leaving would hurt me so much.
i feel like my heart is being ripped apart, ya know what i mean.
i need to listen to some really awesome music to make me happy or on the other hand, a really hot boy needs to come and find me, and then we can do as we want.
i hate couples...they are springing up everywhere around me...and the ones that were there before are in full bloom and nothing can kill them. they are all so happy i get sick and i vomit, no joke, that is my jealousy coming out. what the hell do they have that i don't have. whatever...i'm sick of being a pouty person.
fuck it.
hillary