So basically...
School sucks. It is a horrible place to be. People there can be fake. I dunno how many people I counted today that change their personalities according to who they are around. And one in particular stood out. I despise that.
People be yourselves...don't ask for attention...do not seek it. Be nice to everyone...don't make fun of people (i despise that as well).
There are things that people are going through that you might not know about, and when you tease or poke fun at someone-their day will come crashing down.
Mine did.
I fucking WANT you in MY LIFE. no one understands. well maybe they do. the situation is more complicated than it should be. I think about every detail too much because i am female. I despise that. I despise the fact that you can't be with me....that you have no desire to be with me. I despise my love life because i always pick the ones that are unattainable. And he is the most unattainable of them all. Fuck him and it.
Screw every person at PHS with the exception of a few. I wanna leave but also stay. I wanna stay this age forever, but graduate from Providence, but I don't want to think about college. It frightens me.
Everything scares me. Why do I have to be so screwed up? WHY THE HELL DOES MY DAD HAVE TO LEAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK IT!