BLAH
i need to escape... i am so frusterated with life at the moment... jsutin and i got in a huge fight the other night just about the way he treats me around other people and how theres always someone here and he never checks with me to see if its ok and shit like that... and i packed my shit up and left... well apparently he was crying and called all of our friends and nowt hey think im like this super bitch of the world... i did come back and we worked things out... but i cant stand the fact that everyone is always in our buisness... i think they know more about my relationship than i do and its really getting to me... and just to top things off tonite a bunch of them drove by the apt and yelled something out of the window..i have no clue what it is or if it even has anything to do with me but just the fact that it could has my stomach in knots.... i hate feeling like this .... they make shit up in their own head that they really know nothing about and just are so mean about it ... i need a vacation and just to get away from everyone but can i take one ? NO ... fucking bills, and car shit and just work wont let me and i feel like its so unfair... i work my ass off and i feel like nothing good ever happens... it would be so nice to have just ONE thing handed to us .... but of course not... all the assholes of the world get whatever their heart desires and i work so hard for everythign that i have...my job is like a 15 our of 10 on the stress-o-meter and i feel like im spinning out of control... i feel so old like my life is just passing me by.... i am only 20 and i get up at 730 every day and go to bed by like 1130 .... and on the weekends i am so worn out that i jsut sleep and lay around getting fatter and fatter...ugh ... ok well im done with venting cuz i sound absolutely pathetic.. time for bed. nite all.