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after today.. i know i'm sick of people. i don't want to talk to anyone anymore. blake was the person that kept me sane and grounded. cody too. they were like my safe house. and i dont think blake is taking me back anymore. this weekend id find myself sitting in a huge group of people laughing and talking.. and all i want to do is go lay on blake's couch and go to sleep. thats all. i dont want to be in that situatuon anymore. i dont want to talk to the people that im not supposed to.. i dont want to be around anyone. i really dont. i haven't cried yet.. not since last weekend. but i am now. im so miserable. i really do think i need help. i really do. because i can't live like this. i am so miserable like this. sitting here dying to just get a phone call. i dont know what i am supposed to do. i dont understand anything anymore.