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I am so pissed off right now. I think I need to do my candle-concentration exercise to calm down. My mother called and said that my family, Elaine, and Eric were gathering at Larry's house for dinner. I live 40 minutes away from them. That's point one. I just ate dinner not even fifteen minutes before she called. That's point two. I had not showered or anything because I was studying my ass off for an exam on Tuesday that I don't even think I'll be prepared enough for as it is. That's point three.
Still yet, I was going to grudgingly set aside all that and go over there to do absolutely nothing while they ate. Then my mother has the bright idea to say 'Eric wants to see you' to try to coax me into going. I said 'I know what you're trying to do and I don't like it.' I have told her tens of thousands of times that I am not interested in dating, and probably never will be again. She laughs and all that when I remind her of such, but then she turns around and tries to convince me to date just about anyone. How the fucking hell can I get it through her motherfucking head? It just kills her to know that somehow she produced a daughter who isn't a social butterfly like she was. She just can't believe that I don't want to go out with friends and date men. It's not like I wouldn't change if I could, but I can't. For God's sake, accept that.
So now, I'm pissed and say I don't want to go. That makes me a fucking brat. Fine, whatever. Then she starts the whole speal about me not spending any family time with them. That's fucking BULLSHIT. I see my dad and sister several times a week. I see my mother on Saturdays only, but I COULD see her on Mondays and Thursdays if she would fucking go. She doesn't want to. Fine, that's her fault, not mine.
I swear, if she tries to say one damn word to me within the next 24 hours, I am going to go off on her ass. I haven't fought with her in years, but I don't give a shit. I swear I will let her have it. Ranting has done me no good. I need a fucking candle to stare at for 10 minutes.
Still yet, I was going to grudgingly set aside all that and go over there to do absolutely nothing while they ate. Then my mother has the bright idea to say 'Eric wants to see you' to try to coax me into going. I said 'I know what you're trying to do and I don't like it.' I have told her tens of thousands of times that I am not interested in dating, and probably never will be again. She laughs and all that when I remind her of such, but then she turns around and tries to convince me to date just about anyone. How the fucking hell can I get it through her motherfucking head? It just kills her to know that somehow she produced a daughter who isn't a social butterfly like she was. She just can't believe that I don't want to go out with friends and date men. It's not like I wouldn't change if I could, but I can't. For God's sake, accept that.
So now, I'm pissed and say I don't want to go. That makes me a fucking brat. Fine, whatever. Then she starts the whole speal about me not spending any family time with them. That's fucking BULLSHIT. I see my dad and sister several times a week. I see my mother on Saturdays only, but I COULD see her on Mondays and Thursdays if she would fucking go. She doesn't want to. Fine, that's her fault, not mine.
I swear, if she tries to say one damn word to me within the next 24 hours, I am going to go off on her ass. I haven't fought with her in years, but I don't give a shit. I swear I will let her have it. Ranting has done me no good. I need a fucking candle to stare at for 10 minutes.