Left Behind
Dammit.
I feel so left behind compared to my friends. They're graduating in 13 days, while I'm stuck with one more year before going to high school. ;_;
I felt so horrible yesterday. I just realized I'm not really "fitting in" school. Not really "adjusted" yet.
I feel like a social outcast.
I told all my school trouble to mom yesterday, and now she said she sort of regrets coming here to the US because she didn't plan for me to go through the horrible things that she did when she moved schools when she was my age.
Boohoo. Just play all my troubles away with The Sims 2 University...
...just play all my troubles away..
I know it's not gonna work. I still have to go to school on Monday, and I'm still going to miss Carly's party, which I really really wanted to go to but my dad won't let me go because he said the same thing will happen as in the Swimming party last summer the day before school. And he said because there are going to be guys and that I still need to adjust and get used to those parties.
True, I haven't adjusted, but how am I goin to be without even going to one of those parties?! And for the swimming thing, the only reason I was a wreck was because I didn't know ANYONE then and that the pool was so frickin cold.
I KNOW people now. And there isn't going to be a POOL.
It's going to be a once in a life time opportunity. Her parents are spending $12 per person EVEN IF THEY'RE NOT COMING, so it's really a shame, not to mention a waste of money if I don't go. And the 99.9 DJ is going to be there too! WAAAH!
So yeah...
I'm a loner at school. Well I have people to sit with at lunch, but I don't really have a "best friend". Claire is one, but I just can't sit with them anymore. If I sit there I would have to endure Simone's retardedness, which is SO F*CKING ANNOYING. She makes all these weird monkey sounds and starts to scream if you disagree with her and she calls you "evil". And she starts batting you with her bag and screaming in your ear and makin those monkey sounds if you say her food looks gross, which it does sometimes.And besides, everyone in Claire's table joined the track team, so there's this girl Lexi, and she just WON'T STOP TALKING ABOUT IT WHEN I'M AROUND. She's making me feel like a fish out of water. That happened again at lunch and Claire and Stephanie noticed I wasn't really talking, so they didn't. They just nodded. After lunch I told them about it and theys said she talks about it because she thinks she's so good at it. Claire and Steph just joined as a joke, really. They said they stink at track and hate it when she talks about it.
Damn my social life. Wouldn't be going through all this crap if I were in the Philippines.
Dammit.
Dammit.
Dammit.
I feel so left behind compared to my friends. They're graduating in 13 days, while I'm stuck with one more year before going to high school. ;_;
I felt so horrible yesterday. I just realized I'm not really "fitting in" school. Not really "adjusted" yet.
I feel like a social outcast.
I told all my school trouble to mom yesterday, and now she said she sort of regrets coming here to the US because she didn't plan for me to go through the horrible things that she did when she moved schools when she was my age.
Boohoo. Just play all my troubles away with The Sims 2 University...
...just play all my troubles away..
I know it's not gonna work. I still have to go to school on Monday, and I'm still going to miss Carly's party, which I really really wanted to go to but my dad won't let me go because he said the same thing will happen as in the Swimming party last summer the day before school. And he said because there are going to be guys and that I still need to adjust and get used to those parties.
True, I haven't adjusted, but how am I goin to be without even going to one of those parties?! And for the swimming thing, the only reason I was a wreck was because I didn't know ANYONE then and that the pool was so frickin cold.
I KNOW people now. And there isn't going to be a POOL.
It's going to be a once in a life time opportunity. Her parents are spending $12 per person EVEN IF THEY'RE NOT COMING, so it's really a shame, not to mention a waste of money if I don't go. And the 99.9 DJ is going to be there too! WAAAH!
So yeah...
I'm a loner at school. Well I have people to sit with at lunch, but I don't really have a "best friend". Claire is one, but I just can't sit with them anymore. If I sit there I would have to endure Simone's retardedness, which is SO F*CKING ANNOYING. She makes all these weird monkey sounds and starts to scream if you disagree with her and she calls you "evil". And she starts batting you with her bag and screaming in your ear and makin those monkey sounds if you say her food looks gross, which it does sometimes.And besides, everyone in Claire's table joined the track team, so there's this girl Lexi, and she just WON'T STOP TALKING ABOUT IT WHEN I'M AROUND. She's making me feel like a fish out of water. That happened again at lunch and Claire and Stephanie noticed I wasn't really talking, so they didn't. They just nodded. After lunch I told them about it and theys said she talks about it because she thinks she's so good at it. Claire and Steph just joined as a joke, really. They said they stink at track and hate it when she talks about it.
Damn my social life. Wouldn't be going through all this crap if I were in the Philippines.
Dammit.
Dammit.
Dammit.