Venturing boldly forth into a new year
I've been thinking about things a lot this week. I thought that I would be more bothered by living on my own, that this big change would be strange and possibly daunting. That I would be homesick and miss my family. This is possibly unfortunately not the case however. I love my family dearly and enjoy seeing them but it seems that at the moment I am enjoying my freedom more. Living on my own has really been more of an exercise in everyday life. I have not had pangs of homesickness and I have not really been very bothered by the move to independence. While I admit I have some leeway and security with the continued monthly stipend from my parents I am still not bothered by having to care for myself. I guess it is a decent sign that I was very much ready to continue on and gain independence.
One thing has bothered me and that is the inconsistency of my job. There have been more people taking hours and deliveries the past fortnight and I am left to guess that it is because they want some extra money over the summer. Before Christmas the depot was struggling to even deliver everything in a full week. Now we are done by Tuesday afternoons and I have enough to pay for rent but I would be pretty close to starving if I didn't have savings and a monthly allowance. This is not the ideal situation and so I need to search for a new job. Unfortunately I seem to be in the trap where it is easy to continue lazing and not actually do so. Part of my continuing to post on my journal is an effort to create a more disciplined mindset for myself.
This week coming I plan to get up at 9.30AM each morning. I plan to go to bed by midnight at the latest and not to play any games after 11PM. I hope that by doing these, I might then be able to work into some form of exercise routine and to also discipline myself to properly search for jobs. I am positive a large part of my problems are related to beginning to play video games. They are a terrible trap that I continue to fall into.
One thing has bothered me and that is the inconsistency of my job. There have been more people taking hours and deliveries the past fortnight and I am left to guess that it is because they want some extra money over the summer. Before Christmas the depot was struggling to even deliver everything in a full week. Now we are done by Tuesday afternoons and I have enough to pay for rent but I would be pretty close to starving if I didn't have savings and a monthly allowance. This is not the ideal situation and so I need to search for a new job. Unfortunately I seem to be in the trap where it is easy to continue lazing and not actually do so. Part of my continuing to post on my journal is an effort to create a more disciplined mindset for myself.
This week coming I plan to get up at 9.30AM each morning. I plan to go to bed by midnight at the latest and not to play any games after 11PM. I hope that by doing these, I might then be able to work into some form of exercise routine and to also discipline myself to properly search for jobs. I am positive a large part of my problems are related to beginning to play video games. They are a terrible trap that I continue to fall into.