Aug 20, 2010 03:51
I had another talk with my boss yesterday. We agreed that she would continue telling me what she notices as strange in my behavior and I would try to change. At least as long as I'm near patients and business partners. I do want to change, but not completely. I like myself. Changing sounds like becoming like my mother and sucking all the fun out of life. A nightmare.
Working was okay today. At least I hope it was. Looking back I have the feeling that I did a lot of things wrong again. I have to get that signals of proud puppy who wants to be praised out of my aura. I just have no idea how to do that. I try to look at myself like others would and try to find the things that alienate normals. Cross your fingers for me that I'm not starting too late with that.
Today my boss suddenly called in near panic. I brought a letter for her to the post office, a special letter. I did everything she told me, got the receipt and gave it to her when I came back. Today she called me to ask where the other papers were, since what I gave here didn't count as prove that she sent that letter. She scolded me, made reproaches and had to hang up before I could actually think the situation through. I called my mother since I wasn't at home and didn't have access to a computer. She told me, that all the additional papers were replaced by the serial number on the receipt and that my boss got everything she needed. I sent a text message to my boss and was pretty angry.. I didn't get an apology, but at least my boss calmed down. But I'm still angry. I did nothing wrong and she almost screamed at me. Life is unfair and people are too.
I better get some sleep now... One thing though... do I write too many details? Are my posts too long? Too verbose? I would love to hear your opinion about that. Have a nice night.