Pulse Beacon - an aside by Cora
No one reads this journal anymore, but this is being said anyways, since this part of the web was such a big part of his life for a long time. It will stay up as a reminder of a very dark time that had to be clawed out of a decade ago. The person known as Paul has been fading out of existence for the past six months and will cease to exist in the next few months to a year. Theoretically, he never really existed in the first place, as his true self was buried beneath a facade that he didn't even really fully comprehend until a couple years ago. In a way, I'm going to miss "him." As he fades away, it is like anticipating a funeral for a terminal cancer patient. You remember the good times, you accept the inevitable, you part on good terms, and eventually, they are gone and you are left with the memory of what once was. That's the sad part. The bittersweet part is that all his values and beliefs, all his knowledge and memories, all that he was, good or bad, will carry on. So I ask that you remember the boy who would go with you to late night or make a Denny's run without hesitation, or the guy who's ears would turn red whenever he blushed, or the kind stranger who took a chance to make friends with you online even though most people wouldn't if they knew what was said about him, and know that he always had your best interests at heart. And if you still begrudge him for who he was in the past, why not reconcile with him? Time is preciously short on this Earth, and he chose not to waste it. Time heals all. If you don't happen to catch him while he is still around, that's ok, he still cares about you just the same and may see you when it is all said and done.
~ Cora
~ Cora