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I really don't have anything to say...it has just been a long day. So I went to bed last night and set my alarm as usual. So this morning at 6:30 AM my 'hey baby wake up! Come and dance with me! WOW! YEAH!' comes on...I turned it off and fought with myself for about five minutes as to whether today was actually Saturday and I didn't have to get up for class...I KNEW yesterday was a Friday but I didn't believe it...so I went back to sleep. So I began my day with confusion..and then we (mom, dad, and I) had to get our picture taken for the church directory because we got a free 8x10 (wahoo?) so that was at 2:20 in Colton, we left the house a little after 1...IT DOESN'T TAKE AN HOUR TO GET TO COLTON! so we were early but thankfully we got out at 2:20 and since I had to work at 5 I greatly apreciated the time to chill out before I had to run off yet again...The high school scrapbook is still almost done...I ran out of glue so I am stealing mom's glue when she isn't looking and am writing in a few last things...but I really hope to finish tomorrow so I can work on the million other things I need to do this summer.
I had all these crazy dreams last night...I don't usually dream, well at least I don't remember them...and lately I have trouble falling asleep and wake up in the middle of the night. It has come to a point that I can't remember if something happened in a dream or in real life...everything is so muddled...I have no time to think so I am doing it in my sleep and I wake up sad because I dream about being with my friends and having time to be a person. Things don't make sense ever...I just want to talk to someone...just talk...and not have to push the conversation, not be the first one to talk, or the only one to talk....I am lonley for human connection, and there isn't anyone here who wants to fill that void. I need people, real people, I need my friends.
I feel like broken record, always talking about my friends, and sometimes I feel like I am the only one who is missing their friends and then I feel all weak and pathetic...but I really do need my friends in my life, I have trouble working without them, and this summer has really proved it. This year has required a lot from my friends and I thank you all for sticking around, and I can't wait to be with you all again, because you are important to me...really...
I had all these crazy dreams last night...I don't usually dream, well at least I don't remember them...and lately I have trouble falling asleep and wake up in the middle of the night. It has come to a point that I can't remember if something happened in a dream or in real life...everything is so muddled...I have no time to think so I am doing it in my sleep and I wake up sad because I dream about being with my friends and having time to be a person. Things don't make sense ever...I just want to talk to someone...just talk...and not have to push the conversation, not be the first one to talk, or the only one to talk....I am lonley for human connection, and there isn't anyone here who wants to fill that void. I need people, real people, I need my friends.
I feel like broken record, always talking about my friends, and sometimes I feel like I am the only one who is missing their friends and then I feel all weak and pathetic...but I really do need my friends in my life, I have trouble working without them, and this summer has really proved it. This year has required a lot from my friends and I thank you all for sticking around, and I can't wait to be with you all again, because you are important to me...really...