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and fuck you for that. fuck you for thinking that she's better than everything else. fuck you for thinking she's the come all and fucking end all. fuck you for thinking that life can't go on without her. fuck you for holding this over the head of your wife. fuck you for trying to compare every fucking thing to what she is. fuck you for thinking that she's the best thing that's ever happened to you. fuck you for living in the past with no hope of the future. fuck you for wishing only for her and nothing else. fuck you for thinking that there's no one better than her. she's not fucking perfect, not for you, not for anyone. fuck you for thinking that she is. fuck you. fuck your future. fuck you for your regret. fuck you and your dreams and everything you are. if all you are and all you will ever be is missing her then fuck off, crucify yourself then, i wash my hands of you. love fucking life because it's life, its a goddamn roller coaster and you're on a low end, yet to be to your highest. don't fucking "what if..." me. accept things for the way they are and move fucking on. not because you want to but because you have to. better days and better things will come but you have to let them. stop being so fucking ignorant and let yourself free of this.