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So day one of my new life: left the fam. Don't know if they're dead or alive, would like to care but I can't right now. All I can think about is living, breathing. I'm in survival mode. I need to sell my car. Does anybody want to help me? I will paint you a picture. :)
Today I'm surviving, tomarrow I'm selling my car. I'm taking my FUCKING suitcase and my FUCKING selfish pride bullshit that I can't fucking deal with at home and I'm going to go live in the studio at school. They may try to kick me out or tell me I'm insaine, but I couldn't give two shits because thats how much I have pent up, so that is what I've gots to do. I would like to lean on my friends, but I never want to push anyone down. I'm scared and confussed right now. I understand that people love, but I'm DAMAGED FUCKING GOODS, guys. So I have to do this to get over myself and rebuild my world. Sure, the past will give me drive, will fuel me with energy to survive, but I'm stuck in such a big web right now that I can't think past eating bread and drinking water. Thats all I want... and maybe a matress. And maybe a sheet.
Today I'm surviving, tomarrow I'm selling my car. I'm taking my FUCKING suitcase and my FUCKING selfish pride bullshit that I can't fucking deal with at home and I'm going to go live in the studio at school. They may try to kick me out or tell me I'm insaine, but I couldn't give two shits because thats how much I have pent up, so that is what I've gots to do. I would like to lean on my friends, but I never want to push anyone down. I'm scared and confussed right now. I understand that people love, but I'm DAMAGED FUCKING GOODS, guys. So I have to do this to get over myself and rebuild my world. Sure, the past will give me drive, will fuel me with energy to survive, but I'm stuck in such a big web right now that I can't think past eating bread and drinking water. Thats all I want... and maybe a matress. And maybe a sheet.