I miss apathy.
Warning: This entry is emo. Sorry.
You know how you feel when you get so drunk, you loose control of yourself and your head starts to hurt and the room is dizzy and no matter how hard you try you can't focus on anything, you can't control anything. Everything rolls around inside of you and your eyes sting and all your throat feels like an acidic sock and you know that once you vomit out all the toxin it will all be ok and you will regain control and you'll feel a million times better. Well lately I just feel so out of control drunk all the time. Only I haven't been drinking really, and I can't vomit out life. I hate life right now, today. I can't help it.
You know how you feel when you get so drunk, you loose control of yourself and your head starts to hurt and the room is dizzy and no matter how hard you try you can't focus on anything, you can't control anything. Everything rolls around inside of you and your eyes sting and all your throat feels like an acidic sock and you know that once you vomit out all the toxin it will all be ok and you will regain control and you'll feel a million times better. Well lately I just feel so out of control drunk all the time. Only I haven't been drinking really, and I can't vomit out life. I hate life right now, today. I can't help it.