I know how to be lost in lust / not because you should but because you must
Sometimes I think I'm not cut out to be a writer. I'm really bad at dealing with the stress and my nerves tend to get the better off me. Every time I post a fic, I feel like jumping off a cliff because I'm sure everyone will hate it, even though I've never gotten anything but positive feedback for the things I've written. Sometimes I feel like writing fic isn't worth all this stress and have gone long periods without writing anything, but lately I've been so consumed by inspiration that not writing just hasn't been an option.
Still, inspiration isn't everything and writing certainly doesn't feel easy to me. More often than not it's about having to force myself to write even if I feel like everything I do is crap. I don't know... I think I'd like to be published one day, but I'm not sure I'd survive the amount of stress and self-doubts that would bring forth.
Well, anyways. Enough of writer's angst. I finally managed to finish the first chapter to that Derek/Stiles/Jackson thing I've been working on. I'm not sure how it'll end up, but for now, I'm just happy that I got it started. Been working on a couple of other fics as well, so I guess I'm past that writer's block for now.
In other news, I got to watching The Walking Dead and despite most of the characters driving me up the wall, I quite like it. Season 1 was much better than the current one, but there's been some great scenes on S2 as well. Oddly enough, I don't really ship anything in the series (except maybe Daryl and his crossbow), which is pretty rare when it comes to me and the shows I watch. I'm actually a bit surprised that I haven't fallen into shipping Rick/Shane yet because on paper that's exactly the kind of ship that I prefer: two alpha males with a long history and plenty of trust issues. Throw in some occasional brawling and making-up afterwards... Yeah, just reading that makes me want to jump all over the ship, but there's just something about Shane that turns me off when I watch the show. He's a bastard, and not in a way that I like. I'm thinking of picking up the comics from the library, I've been hearing lots of good things about them and with the way the show's been handling the characters, I think it might be a big improvement.
Lastly, I finally gave in to my cravings and started re-reading The Black Dagger Brotherhood. Am currently halfway through book 4 and loving the hell out of all the V/Butch scenes. OTP forever~~♥ I'll write more about them later, they deserve a post of their own.
Still, inspiration isn't everything and writing certainly doesn't feel easy to me. More often than not it's about having to force myself to write even if I feel like everything I do is crap. I don't know... I think I'd like to be published one day, but I'm not sure I'd survive the amount of stress and self-doubts that would bring forth.
Well, anyways. Enough of writer's angst. I finally managed to finish the first chapter to that Derek/Stiles/Jackson thing I've been working on. I'm not sure how it'll end up, but for now, I'm just happy that I got it started. Been working on a couple of other fics as well, so I guess I'm past that writer's block for now.
In other news, I got to watching The Walking Dead and despite most of the characters driving me up the wall, I quite like it. Season 1 was much better than the current one, but there's been some great scenes on S2 as well. Oddly enough, I don't really ship anything in the series (except maybe Daryl and his crossbow), which is pretty rare when it comes to me and the shows I watch. I'm actually a bit surprised that I haven't fallen into shipping Rick/Shane yet because on paper that's exactly the kind of ship that I prefer: two alpha males with a long history and plenty of trust issues. Throw in some occasional brawling and making-up afterwards... Yeah, just reading that makes me want to jump all over the ship, but there's just something about Shane that turns me off when I watch the show. He's a bastard, and not in a way that I like. I'm thinking of picking up the comics from the library, I've been hearing lots of good things about them and with the way the show's been handling the characters, I think it might be a big improvement.
Lastly, I finally gave in to my cravings and started re-reading The Black Dagger Brotherhood. Am currently halfway through book 4 and loving the hell out of all the V/Butch scenes. OTP forever~~♥ I'll write more about them later, they deserve a post of their own.