everybody has that someone
No. 1:
It is not a good idea to go to the neighbourhood market on a sunday morning and buy newspaper when you're still in your clubbing get-up. People stare.
No. 2:
You can go thru life hating and cussing at somebody at sporadic moments. He messes you up, he's toxic, your poison and the antidote all at the same time. Over time the hate turns into indifference and then finally it tapers off into nothingness and after a while, just for a while he doesn't exist anymore. You're done, you're spent. And you come to a point you feel exhausted but liberated. You had an email you wanted to send to him, telling him everything you think he needed to know. But you don't think it's even worth it anymore, that he's not worth it anymore. Both of you were just passing thru and you find that his footprints have completely faded.
But the heart is a funny thing. You'd think there's no more space for him after the storms have ceased, you'd think he doesn't figure in your life anymore. Then you sit down one day, and you recall the past and you find that he still sits in a corner of your heart. And the footprints were merely buried in sand now swept aside.
Both of you take your separate paths, without talking for some periods. But you always end up running and finding your way back to each other. In the past you used to seek more from him and he lets you down more than once.
Today you don't hope to have him all to yourself anymore, you don't expect great things for both of you anymore. You're just glad he's there. Out of your way, out of your sight. But there, he's there.
In your eyes he's still the same but this time you don't get reminded about the hurt in the past. You don't remember the storms. You remember why you fell for him three years ago. You come to a conclusion that after everything, EVERYTHING, he's that one.
Mind you, he's still that lazy boy who doesn't remember the little things like you do. He forgets what he's told you at times and he's never good with promises. He says the most cutting words sometimes. But he also has the sweetest of soul deep down.
This time around his many flaws don't matter. You don't expect to change him anymore and you don't expect him to change for you. You just don't expect. Period. It's enough to know he will always be in your life, and you in his. And you're each other's 'someones'.
You will always love him but without the drama, without the expectations, without the neediness. It's a love you look upon fondly and whatever happiness he finds, even with somebody else, he deserves it and it's his.
Everything everything everything is in its right place. It's about time.
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