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[tom_paddock]

Week Name/Date/Time: 'Daily Grind' / Sept 2nd, 2006 / 7:42PM
Location: Great Hall, getting ready to take first years to the dorms
Open To: Margie
Currently Involving: Tom

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[tom_paddock]

Breaking it off with Margie was the last thing that Tom would ever want to do. Actually, he wanted the complete opposite. Tom wanted to be able to have Margie at his side, take her on dates not as friends but as a couple. It was definately uncharted territory for him but Tom didn't care. He liked Margie more than he was ever willing to admit and he didn't want to screw up any more than he already had!

Tom listend to what Margie was saying but ... he didn't really understand what she was trying to say. Was she saying that she wanted to date him but couldn't? Or was she saying that she didn't want to date him? Or-- oh bugger, he'd just ask her instead of letting his mind jump to conclusions. "Er... not really," he admitted, still trying to make sense out of what she's just said.

"Are you saying that you just want to be friends?" Tom asked, hoping that wasn't the case with his fingers crossed behind his back. He didn't want to be 'the good friend' and watch Margie date other guys. He wanted to be that guy that she was dating for Merlin's sake!

[margietheshy]

Was that what she wanted?

Honestly, no. If Margie thought about it hard enough, like she was now, she didn't want to be just friends. She wanted to be more than that, ever since that kiss that started this whole huge awkward business. Tom was the one she felt most comfortable around, he was her best guy friend, he was the one she missed the most over the summer.

There was no question what she wanted. Her mom's advice from the summer was ringing in her head, saying that she should go for it. What's the worst that could happen?

"No," Margie looked at him and tried to summon up all the courage she had within her at that moment. "No," she repeated softly and felt a blush coming up onto her face as she closed her eyes and pushed on. "I want more."

[tom_paddock]

"You want more?" he asked, surprised to be hearing that from her. A moment ago he was having doubts that Margie even wanted to still be his friend, and now she was saying things like 'I want more.' What more could she want? To fully rip his heart out and shred it to peices.

Girls were just way too complicated for Tom. They were pretty much the most bipolar things on the face of the planet, aside from Veela of course. One minute they hate you, the next 'they want your bod.' Girls, girls, girls. Why couldn't they be as simple as guys? Have their feelings but not use them to their full extent!

"What do you mean you want more? Do you want to break my heart more? Throw it on the ground and completely shatter it this time around?" Tom wanted to like Margie right now but he didn't know what to think. Perhaps he had taken her the wrong way though? No. She ignored him in the past for a reason obviously. Perhaps she knew how much he really liked her and that was her way of breaking his heart...?

[margietheshy]

Margie just stared at Tom, not really knowing what he was saying. Break his heart more? How could she possibly break his heart more? Why would she want to break his heart in the first place? What had she said that could possibly bring him to that conclusion?

Maybe she had said the wrong thing. Maybe he had really just brought her over here to mess with her and then call their whole friendship off. Tom probably had other friends now, ones that he liked more. He liked better. She didn't blame him, after all she was the one that had messed everything up last year wasn't she? She was the one to ultimately blame.

"What are you talking about?" Margie said, becoming defensive and crossing her arms over her chest, trying her hardest not to show her inward freak out. Trying not to show him anything at all. Just trying to hold herself together and figure out why this bloke was so confusing, "Wh-Why would I want to do that?"

[tom_paddock]

Tom hadn't meant to yell at Margie or get her angry with him. He was just being a guy and only listening when he wanted to or taking things completely wrong. Tom wanted to ... well he wanted to be Margie's boyfriend damn it, he just didn't know how to go about any of this the right way! Girls were too confusing and emotional for him!

His arms were now flailing around when he talked, "Perhaps I'm talking about how you completely ignored me after I kissed you! You have no idea how it felt, do you? Thinking the one person in Hogwarts that you're completely crazy for, utterly mad over thinks that little of you!"

"You tell me, Margie! You're the one that ignored me nearly any time I tried to talk to you." Tom tried getting angry and for a while there it was working but ... well, this was Margie we're talking about. She's just about the only person in the entire world that he could never stay mad at for more than a minute.

[margietheshy]

"I didn't mean to," Margie said softly, trying to keep any anger in her to keep fighting. To not give up. But it would be so nice to, to just let him think that she hated him and let him go off to do whatever he wanted. She didn't want to see him go and date other girls though, and even more importantly she didn't want to lose his friendship any more than she already had.

"I-I-" she stuttered, taking a deep breath before pushing on, looking at her hands that she had managed to move from across her chest so that she could wring together. Even better Staten, so much better.

"What was I supposed to do Tom? We're just friends and then you suddenly kiss me? And then say you fancy me? I'm not supposed to fancy you. We're just supposed to be friends but then you go and do those things and-and then I'm back in first year, trying hard not to fancy that bloke next to me," she looked up at him and started to grow angry again. "Blimey Tom what did you do to me? Why did you have to do that? Why couldn't you just leave me to my bloody fantasies?"

This was it, she could feel it. Margie was positive that he was going to call this whole thing off because she was a horrid friend. She just didn't know if she should just break out into tears or run away before he called the whole friendship off.

[tom_paddock]

Tom was speechless for a minute, not knowing what to say to any of this. He wanted to right all of the wrongs that he'd done to Margie but he didn't know how to go about any of this. Why was it that there was a book for everything else in life but this?! The one thing that Tom wanted more than anything, more than being a prefect, more than being quidditch captain, and he couldn't understand it or make sense of any of it.

"I had to do it because I'm tired of sitting back. I thought that maybe for once I'd actually be bold and take a chance, not lose another girl to another oaf in Hogwarts. I thought maybe, just maybe, she'd fancy me in return. I guess that isn't the case though apparently."

After looking up at Margie for this whole time, Tom looked down at his feet, trying to hold back from trying to knock some sense into Margie. He wanted to just be straight-foward with her, not beat around the bush, but it wasn't going to happen. He couldn't just come out and say 'Yes Margie, I'm practically in love with you!' He'd seen what saying just 'I fancy you' did to her and would rather not experience 'I love you' just yet.

"Bloody hell, Margie! I don't want us to be just a silly fantasy! I want it to be real," Tom said, almost with a pleading tone. "Is that too hard for you to understand?" Running his hands through his hair, Tom looked at Margie. All that was happening was he was getting frustrated. He thought that Margie, being the smart girl that she is, would possibly pick up on the 'I fancy you and want to be your boyfriend' part a bit sooner and understand it.

Tom didn't think Margie was a horrid friend at all. A bit confused and without answers that he wanted, but never a horrid friend. Calling off even their friendship was a bit extreme for even Tom. Even if he walked away from Margie today not as her boyfriend but as just a friend, he'd still watch out for her and be a type of guardian angel or protector even if she didn't want it.

[margietheshy]

OH

Margie could do nothing else but just stand there staring at him as the dots started to connect in her head. Tom didn't want to break off their friendship, he wanted to be in a relationship. With her. That thought along boggled her mind quite a bit.

On top of that he didn't think she fancied him. How did he get that impression? She thought that she had said it quite clearly and it was common knowledge by now. Of course clearly to Margie was just a subtle hint in the real world, but that was besides the point.

She cleared her throat to say something but couldn't, instead having to look down at the ground and choose her words carefully. Margie could admit she had no clue what went on in Tom's head, and was trying to make everything clear to him. Since apparently he couldn't figure out her either.

"Why do you keep saying I don't fancy you?" She finally said, looking up at him. "I don't get it Tom. You say it want to be real...but when I go and say that I want more? You start throwing it back in my face and pretending that you don't want to be my friend." Margie had to take a breath, to calm herself down before she stopped functioning from her frustration. And stress.

"Don't you get it you prat?" She said frustrated, figuring might as well let all of the eggs out of the basket while she had the chance. "I want it to be real too."

This was a really, really long day.

[tom_paddock]

"Because you ignored me and you just said it yourself 'I'm not supposed to fancy you' and that we're just supposed to be friends," Tom said, throwing up his arms in frustration. Honestly now! What guy would think that a girl liked them after they go off and say that?!

Tom didn't know what to say to Margie's next words. He'd simply taken her the wrong way but he was a guy, he couldn't exactly admit that he was wrong. "I only said that because I thought you didn't want to even look at me anymore. It was just the impression I had of you," Tom said as he looked back over at the ever-growing crowd of Ravenclaw's that they were supposed to be helping.

When Margie said that she wanted the same that he did, Tom's face went blank and his jaw nearly dropped to the ground. "You-- you do?" His voice was a bit hoarse and he was confused as hell right now, but Tom didn't care. All his brain could function was what Margie had just said.

[margietheshy]

"Well that's what I thought before you went and changed it all! And I didn't mean to ignore you. I'm sorry I just didn't know what to do," Margie said, every bit as frustrated as Tom was right then.

Margie resisted the urge to roll her eyes and smack him upside the head. Why did guys have to be filled so so much dumb pride? That and they were so thick headed sometimes. Even more than girls. Though she would never admit that that was one of the reasons that she liked him. Odd but true.

"Do you really think I would want to throw away our friendship over...that?" She said, looking over at the crowd as well and quietly sighing. This whole thing just seemed to be a huge misunderstanding on both of their points. Margie couldn't blame Tom for being confused though, she didn't even understand herself so how was he supposed to?

Her words caught up with her and once Tom said that her face went bright red. She shuffled her toes and managed to make herself look him in the eyes. Gulp. "Yes," Margie nodded with a shy smile, "I do."

Hopefully that would be ok? She still had a quiet little doubt in the back of her mind that he had moved on over the summer. That she had missed her chance or that this wasn't real at all.

[tom_paddock]

"Talking would have helped," Tom admitted, kicking one of his shoes with the other. It was Tom's way of slapping himself but it was less noticable. Merlin, why was he such a failure when it came to love?! He was perfecting everything else but that!

"Girls do some pretty crazy things," Tom said as he looked at the crowd again, already feeling the slap across his arm. Margie was right in thinking that Tom didn't understand her one bit, but that was part of the reason he liked her so much: she was like a mystery, waiting to be solved.

A very noticable grin spread across Tom's face as he felt the redness crash over his face too. "So... so does this mean you'll be my girlfriend?" he asked, his voice nearly inaudible but just loud enough (and not hoarse enough) to hear.

Tom could hear CJ and the other prefects calling to him and Margie over there because they were about to leave any minute but this was definately more important. Margie was more important than everything to Tom. She deserved his attention more than the people he didn't even know waiting over there for him!

[margietheshy]

Tom was not a failure when it came to love! No he was just like everyone else, a little confused but just trying their best. Margie would say that he was better at it than she was actually.

Margie looked at him and tried to hide the urge to hit him, but she couldn't help it, it just happened! Though it was done with a bit of a smile and an apology on her face. She couldn't let that comment go without some type of hit.

"Not that crazy," she said, trying to be as serious as she could.

Margie saw his grin and tried to stop her own from coming across her face but just ended up looking over at the other Prefects calling them over. She could say this, this was what she wanted. All she had to do was say yes. Come on Staten where did your backbone go?

She managed to nod, biting her lip and looking up at him, unable to keep a slightly goofy smile off her face, "Yes." It felt silly to her to be so excited or to feel so relieved after saying just one word, but for some reason she did. For some reason it just took a lot off her shoulders and made her feel...calmer, more collected, more in control. Or just less stressed.

[tom_paddock]

Tom was somewhat glad that Margie had hit him. It seemed to make him less tense and nervous around her, which was a definate plus. He was laughing it feeling more at ease now, like he used to when he would talk to Margie before all of the dating and kissing deal.

He laughed a bit and rolled his eyes as Margie tried to say women weren't crazy. Ask any guy and they'd surely take Tom's side in this matter. Women were just plain crazy, especially when it came to emotions and toying with them. Downright nutters.

Tom was starting to doubt that Margie would say yes. For all he knew she was simply pulling his leg but then... then she said yes! No, Tom couldn't believe what he was hearing. When he went to speak, words couldn't even fully form and sounded more like they were coming from a toddler. Once again though, right when the words were finally starting to come to him, his sister was yelling for him to come on.

Sighing and rolling his eyes, Tom looked up at Margie. "Come on," he said, before putting his arm around Margie and starting to walk towards the crowd of first years. "We could always stop at a broom cupboard along the way to celebrate," Tom joked, winking at Margie.

[margietheshy]

Well that was because they were all guys. If they were girls then they would have sided with Margie. Guys were completely insane and always seemed to need to do everything better than everyone else. She didn't really get it at all.

Awkward silence? She didn't know, she just stood there and watched as Tom struggled with trying to say something. Margie understood the problem and just smiled, looking down at the floor and shuffling her feet.

Now what?

Oh, Prefect duties. Right. And then Tom's arm was around her and suddenly her mind was going full blast, trying to figure out what she was supposed to do. Was she supposed to put her arm around him? Was she supposed to keep it down? Oh bugger this whole 'not knowing what to do' thing was going to keep on going wasn't it? And part of her had hoped it would stop once they started dating. A small part.

Of course when Tom said something like that she couldn't help her body seize up and her face turn bright red. That and she tripped over her feet and barely was able to save herself before looking at him. Oh Merlin, oh Merlin, he wasn't...serious? Maybe. No she just...yah.

"Tom!" Margie said, trying to keep her smile off her face. Ugh she wasn't supposed to be smiling right now but she was! In fact she didn't know what else to say, instead just nudging him softly in the side and keeping her head down so that she could at least look semi normal when they got to the group. Deep breaths. Wooo.

[tom_paddock]

Tom would blame the manly-ness and the need to be forever correct, on the testosterone. Come to think of it, a lot of the stuff he did he would blame on testosterone if he could. As it stood Tom didn't blame it on anything, nor did he acknowledge the fact that he could have a weakness.

"Calm down, Spazzy McGee," Tom teased as he stopped and made sure that Margie was okay before starting to walk again. "I'm only joking, unless... well, unless you want to, of course." He grinned, knowning Margie would most likely never be a broom-cupboard kind of girl. Tom honestly didn't care too much about that anyways - he wasn't like most guys that you'd see snogging the living daylights out of anything that moved.

Tom looked down at Margie but kept walking. He could finally call her his girlfriend after all of what happened last year and over the summer. Tom was probably the luckiest and happiest man walking today, and it was all because of Margie.

[margietheshy]

Margie made a few noises while trying to think of something to say before just managing to fall into silence, a silent huff coming out. She knew that he was just trying to get her riled up and it reminded her a little too well of the day that he kissed her.

Instead she just walked, making sure to pay extra close attention to her feet so that she didn't fall on her face or something equally as embarrassing. After a few moments she looked up at him and smiled hesitantly, not sure how she was supposed to act but not wanting to seem like she was ignoring him. That was how this whole mess started right?

"What did you do this summer? I didn't hear from you much," she said quietly, falling silent when they neared the group awaiting them. Oops?