I miss you so much<33

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Monday I’ve got to say was the hardest day of my life. My mom came in and told me in the morning that today was the day that we had to put my dog down. I just kind of ignored her and went back to bed thinking that somehow this wasn't happening. I ended up waking up and no one said anything to me, so I kind of just thought it was a dream. Then my mommy came up to me and told me that if I had plans today that I had to make sure that they were early cause we were going to the vet at 5:15. I didn't really think that it would happen because every time my mom has told me that we're going to do it..she ends up getting better or something and we never do it, so that's what I thought would happen this time. Wow...was I wrong. I was suppose to hangout with Kayla and go bowling with her, her boyfriend and some other dude, but her mom wouldn't let her because she stay home from school. =[ I put blonde highlights in my hair tho. I love it<3333 Then I went with my mom shopping. It was 4:30, so we headed home and got my brother, dad and my dog. My brother held her all the way to the vet. Once we got out of the car I looked at my dog and I just started crying. My family went inside and I sat outside for alittle bit. Then my daddy came outside and held me, cried with me and talked to me for alittle bit. I went inside and held my dog for the longest time ever. I didn't want to let her go. She was so scared and shaking, she had no clue what was going on. They took us to the room and had us wait in there for like 15 minutes and I just sat there crying with my dog. My mom started bringing up old times that we shared with her and I just couldn't stop crying. Then the vet guy came in. He sat with us and told us everything that he was going to do to her and said that all he was going to do was give her a shot and she wouldn't feel a thing...she would just fall asleep. He told us to put her on the table, so my mom took her from me and sat her up there. He put the shot and her and I couldn't take it. I walked outside the door and just peeked in while he was doing it all. After about 3 seconds she fell asleep. He put some heart thing on her and then said "She's gone." I just broke down. We all broke down. That was like the first time I've ever seen my brother and dad cry. =[ I don't think I have ever cried that much in my whole entire life. It felt like I seriously had 5723489057034875 nails stabbing in me. It was the worst pain I’ve ever felt. I remember the last to songs I heard before and while she was getting put to sleep. It was Clay Aiken-This is the night and Bryan Adams-Heaven. I can’t help but cry every time I here them. I mean no one really understands just how much this dog means to me and how much she has done for me and my family. I know this sounds a little weird, but she was like a mother to me. She protected me from anything that tried to hurt me. When I was little she use to always walk me to my bus stop in the morning and then walk home by her self and then once she got home she’d sit at the front window whining until my bus came back and she’d come back and get me. Also, when I was little she’d always play around with my brother and parents and all that, but she wouldn’t do that to me because she knew I was to little and she didn’t want to hurt me, but once I got older she started to play around with me. Without her I wouldn’t be who I am today. Now, she’s gone and I’m never going to be able to see her again... =[ =[ =[ =[ My dog was a miracle<3 Well...after that I came home did nothing. Cried. I was sitting in my room crying with my kitty [CoCo] and I guess she knew that I was upset and she came over to me and started licking my face and my hand like my dog use to. I laid with my head on my bed and she came over and curled right up to my head and laid down. It was cute. I think there’s a reason that my dad finally let us have a kitty. I mean I’ve wanted one for the past 2 or 3 years and all of a sudden he just lets us have her and he’s not allergic to them anymore. I think she’s here to help me not be so upset. I mean it kind of does help, but no pet will ever be able to take the place of my dog. My dog was here for 17 years. I know that when she was here she had the best time ever and she was suffering and I know what we did was for the best. I guess if you really love something you got to let go no matter how much it's going to hurt. It just makes me upset knowing that I’m never going to be able to pet her, hold her, kiss her, take her for walks or see her ever again. There is always going to be an empty spot in my heart now that she’s gone. I’ll never forget her.
...RIP Sheba 1.17.05<333333 Best thing that ever happened to me

Tuesday, went to school then practice. Went to the boys swim meet. They won. Had dinner with my brother and mom. Went to Blockbuster and bought A Cinderella Story. Came home and went to bed.

Today, went to school, got out at 2 for my meet. We won our game. So, now our team is tied for first place!! Heck yessssssss! =D The camera people were there again and they video taped our team, so we might be on TV! Whoooo! Now, I’m sitting here doing nothing, probably going to go in my room and watch a movie. I’m out. Comment if you’d like! =P BYE<3